i'm sad...
and tomorrow will be worse. My little brother has been here for 10 days and has to go back tomorrow. I have not seen him in like 3 years and it has been great seeing him. I know I will get to see him next summer for he wedding but I just feel it has not been enough time. I have realized this week that I am truly all alone. I have been here for 8 months now and guess how many friends I have..are you guys ready..0!I have noone but Andrew. Don't get me wrong he is wonderful but what about when he goes on deployment..I get to sit here in the apartment and do nothing. I miss my family to some. I mean I wish I could see my dad more but not everyday or weekend. I don't know. I feel like I am slipping into a great depression. This has happened before and it sucks. It takes alot of time for me to get out of it and that was with the help of meds. I am trying not to think about Levi leaving but for the past 2 days everytime I think about it I start to cry. I told Andrew the other day that I don't want to live here anymore. I want to move where I have friends. I really wish I could do that but, I don't want to leave him. I am screwed either way. Well I guess tomorrow I will write more.