Coming off my livejournal hiatus
I decided that I was being emo and stupid the other day when I decided to quit the internet. I've had some interesting revelations today after talking to my mom and Theresa, and I thought I'd share them with my journal. I was talking about unnamed friend who doesn't like me to mention her on livejournal and how I was upset that she hadn't called after I had left a voicemail telling her that I was going through some rough times, and my mom was like, "you know, Sara Ellen, most people your age just don't want friends who need them. They don't want to take care of anyone, they just want to have fun." I replied with, "well yeah, but that's not friendship. When you're someone's friend you're there for them in the good times and the bad" and my mom said that a lot of people think that's a nice idea, but its really hard, especially at my age, to find someone who will actually subscribe to that. I've decided that this is very true.
Tonight Theresa and I went out for coffee to catch each other up and life, and we talked about our respective boy issues. She was telling me that she sometimes comes off as really needy and then is like "why the fuck did I do that? that's retarded." I was like "OH MY GOD I DO THE EXACT SAME THING!" Talking to Theresa I realized that I honestly don't need counseling. In fact, I think going to counseling would make the situation worse. I'm glad that I went once because it came as the result of me realizing that I was acting stupid, but that's really all it is-- just acting stupid. I don't think I have any mental problems or any attachment problems. Last night I went out and didn't feel attached at all, and tonight I was hanging out with Theresa and didn't really care about the whole situation. I realized, after actually enjoying the company of someone who truly is my friend and having like 18 guys, correction, men over the age of 25, hit on me that I don't need one person in particular. I have a lot going for me right now and to get hung up on someone who pretty much treated me like shit and still doesn't treat me that well sometimes is just stupid.
So those are my little revelations for the day. I'm glad I don't feel like I have mental health problems anymore. In fact, I feel quite the opposite.
Tonight Theresa and I went out for coffee to catch each other up and life, and we talked about our respective boy issues. She was telling me that she sometimes comes off as really needy and then is like "why the fuck did I do that? that's retarded." I was like "OH MY GOD I DO THE EXACT SAME THING!" Talking to Theresa I realized that I honestly don't need counseling. In fact, I think going to counseling would make the situation worse. I'm glad that I went once because it came as the result of me realizing that I was acting stupid, but that's really all it is-- just acting stupid. I don't think I have any mental problems or any attachment problems. Last night I went out and didn't feel attached at all, and tonight I was hanging out with Theresa and didn't really care about the whole situation. I realized, after actually enjoying the company of someone who truly is my friend and having like 18 guys, correction, men over the age of 25, hit on me that I don't need one person in particular. I have a lot going for me right now and to get hung up on someone who pretty much treated me like shit and still doesn't treat me that well sometimes is just stupid.
So those are my little revelations for the day. I'm glad I don't feel like I have mental health problems anymore. In fact, I feel quite the opposite.