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Ever since I started going to therapy about three weeks ago, and expressing all the feelings that I've been trying to hide, I've been really self-conscious. It's like everything that I've been feeling for years, and have been ignoring, is just staying there longer than it used to. It's been a hard week for me, especially since we've actually been getting somewhere, and I won't be able to see him this week. I just wanna solve everything that's been going on in my head. I need to fix that.
I'm moving out in December. It's official. It can't come fast enough.
And I can't stop picturing in my head what you told me, and I wish I could say and do something as beautiful as she did. I wish I weren't so scared to.
Does anyone have any beautiful memories of me? Or any favorites of me? Something? I need a moment. I need something.
I thought I was getting better but I'm not and I can't shut my brain off and it's not helping. I hate this feeling.
I'm moving out in December. It's official. It can't come fast enough.
And I can't stop picturing in my head what you told me, and I wish I could say and do something as beautiful as she did. I wish I weren't so scared to.
Does anyone have any beautiful memories of me? Or any favorites of me? Something? I need a moment. I need something.
I thought I was getting better but I'm not and I can't shut my brain off and it's not helping. I hate this feeling.