Amen.
School used to be enjoyable. Last year I actually enjoyed going to school every now and then. This year I think of any excuse just to stay home. I finally started to realize just how much bullshit work teachers give us.
Softball is starting to get in the way of things I'd rather being doing. Sometimes I get out to the field and think, "This is two hours of my life that I can never get back."
Prom was cool. But all dances this year were monotonous. I walked around feeling like an adult among children. Sometimes I would give anything just to be the freshman who is so excited to get ready with her friends and go to the dance like it was the biggest night of her life. Now I just stand around, dance to the occasional good song and otherwise just wait for "Sweet Home Alabama," "Sandstorm," and "Love Shack" to inevitably be played. But you want to know what my high school goal was? To go to every Jesuit date dance. Wow. That's pathetic, but nevertheless, mission accomplished.
Speaking of which, I've had a boyfriend for almost all of high school. I was only on my own for most of freshman year but I can't even remember what that feels like. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad one, but who's to say it's either? But you have to wonder what these high school couples are going to do after the shit hits the fan. I think I'm one of the few lucky ones who ended up at the same college as my boyfriend.
I keep imagining graduation day. I imagine standing on the steps of the Memorial Auditorium lining up to take our class photo. Then I imagine standing on those same steps a couple hours later ready to leave that same class I just took a picture with because of a sheet of paper in my hand.
I've found that when it comes down to it, people who were once my friend, become jealous of my solid friendships that I have now. There have been a few girls this year that I have gladly discarded as my friends and they can't except that and try to create drama for the rest of us.... Thank God, Allah, Buddha or whoever the hell is out there, that it's almost over because of these people!
But I've been ready. I'm not overly attached to anything at Loretto and I've made sure to keep it that way. Change is good.
Softball is starting to get in the way of things I'd rather being doing. Sometimes I get out to the field and think, "This is two hours of my life that I can never get back."
Prom was cool. But all dances this year were monotonous. I walked around feeling like an adult among children. Sometimes I would give anything just to be the freshman who is so excited to get ready with her friends and go to the dance like it was the biggest night of her life. Now I just stand around, dance to the occasional good song and otherwise just wait for "Sweet Home Alabama," "Sandstorm," and "Love Shack" to inevitably be played. But you want to know what my high school goal was? To go to every Jesuit date dance. Wow. That's pathetic, but nevertheless, mission accomplished.
Speaking of which, I've had a boyfriend for almost all of high school. I was only on my own for most of freshman year but I can't even remember what that feels like. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad one, but who's to say it's either? But you have to wonder what these high school couples are going to do after the shit hits the fan. I think I'm one of the few lucky ones who ended up at the same college as my boyfriend.
I keep imagining graduation day. I imagine standing on the steps of the Memorial Auditorium lining up to take our class photo. Then I imagine standing on those same steps a couple hours later ready to leave that same class I just took a picture with because of a sheet of paper in my hand.
I've found that when it comes down to it, people who were once my friend, become jealous of my solid friendships that I have now. There have been a few girls this year that I have gladly discarded as my friends and they can't except that and try to create drama for the rest of us.... Thank God, Allah, Buddha or whoever the hell is out there, that it's almost over because of these people!
But I've been ready. I'm not overly attached to anything at Loretto and I've made sure to keep it that way. Change is good.