I am just whatever
Lately, I feel like I am just walking on glass with everyone. I feel like when I am around people I just shouldn't talk. I am so tired of always being let down and put down. I just want my life to be somewhat "normal". I don't think it will ever be normal again though. I love my son, he is my world! He is growing faster and faster everyday and he is just so darn amazing! He is doing things that they said he would never do, breathing is one of them. He is doing it. He is surviving. Decemeber 2nd will mark 6 months since his last revision. Which will be the longest he has gone without one. Isn't that great! I'm sooo darn happy.
Life seems to be ok though. My family totally has disowned me, I felt that at Thanksgiving dinner. Luckly they didn't take it out on Kadyn, or some words would of been said. I am not on speaking term with my dad so much, and my mom well honestly, I think she needs to be locked into a padded room full of nothing, and the key thrown away. I just miss when my family was acually getting along. I am glad I have my own little family that I can love and count on.
Thanksgiving was good though. I went to Brian and Aimee's and they cooked for dinner. Omg is she an amazing cook. It was so yummy. I was never so full in my life until yesterday. We said Grace, which that is new to me to, I have never said Grace at a meal before, well in fact I never have. It was nice though. I liked it. Kadyn napped through dinner which made me happy becuase I could acually sit down and enjoy the food without worring about him. LIke if someone going to step on my little man or if he is going to roll somewhere he isn't suppose to roll. Even though I had to go to my parents afterwards and be miserable, I had a good time before.
I am glad it's over though. I am more so excited for christmas!
So i have finished the first two books of the Twilight series. Which is Twilight and New Moon. I am going to get Eclipse tonight, I might get Breaking Dawn also so I can have the collection. My next pay I am going to get Twilight in the Bigger paper back, So i can have the original collection, I am just going to give the smaller one to Heather, I think, I know I am going to let her borrow it. I know she is going to lvoe it. I never get into a book ever but I am so sucked into this series, It's nuts.
Anyways
I have been coping with the recent events lately. I have been telling myself that ending it was a resonable decision. That sometimes letting go is whats best. The future is a crazy thing and I am just looking out for it. I know I haven't really been talkative lately, sorry just blame it on my depresion. Kadyn is in his bed playing..I am debating if I want to go interrupt his quiet play or if I want to leave him be becasue he is being good.
I think I am going to peak in on him lol
Hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving. I know some people are still celebrating today!