the drunk kids, the catholics, we're all about the same.
It's only the beginning of summer and I have already had the time of my life. Hanging out with my best friends everyday is a blast, going out to eat every tuesday with the family is priceless. I have loved every moment of this summer, even when everyone is at work and i'm all alone laying out in my pool. I mean we all need our alone time, sort of like today. I've had all day to just lay and think about everything. My family is moving in 20 days and I am not moving with them. I have no idea how I am going to live without my mom. She is my everything; she's my mom, my best friend, my guide, my support, she is the one person always there for me. I talk to my mom about everything and even living with her I still call her like 3 times a day. Soon she will be on the other side of the country without me. It was my decision to stay here, but I dont think I am strong enough to. In 20 days we are driving across the country, my family won't be returning with me on August 12th either, just me. The more I think about it the more I think I can't live without my family. I guess I'm just thinking about way too much since I am by myself today. Meagan is at work, Sonja is at work, and Katie is on her way to Europe. I mean I would be at work, but I sort of have a broken foot. Not much work for a 16 year old girl on crutches. In 6 days it will be a year since I made that one mistake that ruined my life. Yup July 14th 2004. But we can't sit here and dwell on our past. I just have to move on, I mean I don't let it stop me. Yeah, I had another surgery 2 months ago and I am still on crutches but I still do everything anybody can do. I go to the beach, I go swimming, I lay out in the pool, just like any average person on a summer day.
yeah, so this is long and probably makes zero sense but I just had to get it out.