Illusion (Private)
It's just an illusion. I just have to keep telling myself that. This is all just an illusion. We're not dating. There is no relationship. Just an illusion, a cover. I used to be good at covers before Bryce,
before Chuck. Chuck's right. Pretty soon I'll be moving on, to some other place. Have a new name, new "friends". I won't get to be Sarah Walker, Orange Orange Employee. I won't get to be myself either....
Maybe that's why this is so difficult. I was actually starting to...feel like me again. Our date was almost perfect. He even showed up at my apartment with a rose. It was cute. For once in my life, this was a cover that didn't require me to be cold and unfeeling. But it is effecting my job, my ability as an agent. I just have to keep telling myself it's a cover. Maybe someday I'll believe it.
before Chuck. Chuck's right. Pretty soon I'll be moving on, to some other place. Have a new name, new "friends". I won't get to be Sarah Walker, Orange Orange Employee. I won't get to be myself either....
Maybe that's why this is so difficult. I was actually starting to...feel like me again. Our date was almost perfect. He even showed up at my apartment with a rose. It was cute. For once in my life, this was a cover that didn't require me to be cold and unfeeling. But it is effecting my job, my ability as an agent. I just have to keep telling myself it's a cover. Maybe someday I'll believe it.