Sorry.
How can you do that? Drop your closest friend, the one who's up at 3 in the morning for you, the one who gets no rest, the one with no peace, how can you drop her off the face of the planet and pretend that she never existed? How can you do that? She rarely called you and when she did you didn't answer or have time to answer. I hope that you are damn proud of yourself for being such an incompetant human. She used to happy like that in that picture you have. And now? Well, I'm glad that you found happiness. Because you know what? I'm weary and I waited and waited and waited for these feelings of tired, pain, sadness to go away and you have done nothing for her. Nothing. You took away some small amount of meaning that she had in her life after offering it on a silver platter. You use people and I hope that she knows that. I hope that is what she really wants. You'll be gone soon, possibly farther than you think you will be, but I want you to know that after all of that, she still wants to love you. And maybe she'll miss you, and maybe she'll see you again, maybe not. But you will stand together before judgement and I hope that everything works out before then. She's forgiven you, by the way, but that doesn't make it much better for her.