Falling to Pieces
I hate depression! I hate it I HATE IT!! I feel like I can't handle anything sometimes, why can't it just all go away...
I think I have CCD tomorrow oh the joy. I need to know for sure though, so when someone comes online I will ask them. I heared that I have school monday, I thought I wasn't but...I'm not so sure anymore I will have to ask about that too.
So yeah this weekend has been ok. I have been soo bored that I have been working on tunnels and stuff in my backyard all this time with my cousins and siblings. THAT IS HOW BORED I AM! Nobody has been calling me, there has been nothing better to do. I am sick of this! Where the hell are my friends!? Ohh yeah that is right they are all calling Nolan and Trevor every day instead. I want to talk to them too, but rarely they call and when they DO actually call, they always have to leave in about 10 minutes! They never talk to me anymore, instead they would rather talk to my other friends(no names). It must seem as if I am overreacting but if you ONLY KNEW! They always talk/ask about them(Nolan and Trevor and friends) and I feel left out because it seems as if they could care less about me anyore. You know what I think I am finally realizing that I am just a 'person' that sits in the back. Not really cared about but is just there. I want to BE cared about. I want to be noticed. I don't think I ever really got to actually be noticed.
And you know what when I DO get a chance it always gets taken away....
I am a bitch...I hate acting like this. It's just that I have soo much inside that I can't even write it all. I'm a fucked up person...
I need to go now...if it matters.
<3 Sarah
Kat I love you! You are my best friend. =D
And to all of my other friends I love you too!
I think I have CCD tomorrow oh the joy. I need to know for sure though, so when someone comes online I will ask them. I heared that I have school monday, I thought I wasn't but...I'm not so sure anymore I will have to ask about that too.
So yeah this weekend has been ok. I have been soo bored that I have been working on tunnels and stuff in my backyard all this time with my cousins and siblings. THAT IS HOW BORED I AM! Nobody has been calling me, there has been nothing better to do. I am sick of this! Where the hell are my friends!? Ohh yeah that is right they are all calling Nolan and Trevor every day instead. I want to talk to them too, but rarely they call and when they DO actually call, they always have to leave in about 10 minutes! They never talk to me anymore, instead they would rather talk to my other friends(no names). It must seem as if I am overreacting but if you ONLY KNEW! They always talk/ask about them(Nolan and Trevor and friends) and I feel left out because it seems as if they could care less about me anyore. You know what I think I am finally realizing that I am just a 'person' that sits in the back. Not really cared about but is just there. I want to BE cared about. I want to be noticed. I don't think I ever really got to actually be noticed.
And you know what when I DO get a chance it always gets taken away....
I am a bitch...I hate acting like this. It's just that I have soo much inside that I can't even write it all. I'm a fucked up person...
I need to go now...if it matters.
<3 Sarah
Kat I love you! You are my best friend. =D
And to all of my other friends I love you too!