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So. yeah. remember that post where i was all oh no brandon's going to break up with me? apparently he already had. that conversation WAS the break up. But of course, me being oblivious to all, didn't realize it. I even told him "youre gonna have to say it because i will still think we're working on it if you don't" but did he listen? nope. so he thought we were done. nice to know.
I saw him about a week after... was funny actually because i was on the phone with my sister TALKING ABOUT HIM. der..... ya. he waved. i turned around and walked the other way, with my heart pounding and my eyes wide. I don't think he heard that i was talking about him, but I RAN AWAY FROM HIM!!! isn't that the most graceful thing ever?
But i think i'm doing ok. i don't want to die, so thats good... but i am very fatigued and probably depressed. but oh well. it's to be expected. all of my friends think it's better this way. as well as most of my family. we are better off apart, apparently.
anyways, so now i'm single. i don't really think about trying to get another boyfriend or anything and i don't think its just because i'm out of a long relationship. i didn't look for that before brandon, and i'm not gonna look for it now. this statement supposedly made him feel guilty. okkkkk, except that it's just not my style. i don't want him to feel guilty. it's not his fault he didn't love me enough to want to keep trying to work it out. it's not mine either. thinking this makes me feel better about the break up because well, i don't know it just does.
i'm just going to go on doing what i am doing... surrounding myself with my friends who make me laugh and throwing myself into my new job. life goes on.
and for the minority of people that might actually read this journal, here's a song, my break up song.
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Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park
I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
In cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you..
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you..
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you.
I saw him about a week after... was funny actually because i was on the phone with my sister TALKING ABOUT HIM. der..... ya. he waved. i turned around and walked the other way, with my heart pounding and my eyes wide. I don't think he heard that i was talking about him, but I RAN AWAY FROM HIM!!! isn't that the most graceful thing ever?
But i think i'm doing ok. i don't want to die, so thats good... but i am very fatigued and probably depressed. but oh well. it's to be expected. all of my friends think it's better this way. as well as most of my family. we are better off apart, apparently.
anyways, so now i'm single. i don't really think about trying to get another boyfriend or anything and i don't think its just because i'm out of a long relationship. i didn't look for that before brandon, and i'm not gonna look for it now. this statement supposedly made him feel guilty. okkkkk, except that it's just not my style. i don't want him to feel guilty. it's not his fault he didn't love me enough to want to keep trying to work it out. it's not mine either. thinking this makes me feel better about the break up because well, i don't know it just does.
i'm just going to go on doing what i am doing... surrounding myself with my friends who make me laugh and throwing myself into my new job. life goes on.
and for the minority of people that might actually read this journal, here's a song, my break up song.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park
I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.
In cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.
And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you..
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you..
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray,
And the sun will set for you.