"i'm back in my flat on the road where the cars never stop going thru the night..."
Well, I moved back in with my dad. and ya know what? I don't mind it one bit. I realize he just wants me to fulfill my promises, so i am going to do the best that i can to make him realize i want to be here. he still thinks i might just be using him, and theres always some truth to that (everyone uses everyone else for something) but i seriously wanted to be here. and it wasn't the bugs at grandmas, or disagreements with them or anything like that. i'm closer to my friends here, and brandon too.
HOWEVER... i would like to get a job soon. I need to save up some money so that someday i CAN move out and in with brandon, or with jessi in the city, just somewhere. driving back and forth from my mom's takes a lot of gas money from my bank account. also trying to find HER a place down here. that would make things so much easier too.
SO. I talked with anna for the first time in a long time yesterday/daybefore yesterday. I really want to see her because i think the last interactions with her, including my lj, went too far out of hand. i strongly feel i need to apologize to her. whats done is done, and i had no right to say the things i said. some of you had already deleted your posts, but i deleted the entry just now.
I think i was very depressed at that time. i didn't realize it. and seeing her do things harmful to her body and soul, hurt me. i was sad angry and confused. i took it out on her poor decisions. that was cruel of me. tomorrow/later today i am going to see her and tell her all this.
well, if anyone wants to talk, by all means call me on my cell!
love,
~sarah
HOWEVER... i would like to get a job soon. I need to save up some money so that someday i CAN move out and in with brandon, or with jessi in the city, just somewhere. driving back and forth from my mom's takes a lot of gas money from my bank account. also trying to find HER a place down here. that would make things so much easier too.
SO. I talked with anna for the first time in a long time yesterday/daybefore yesterday. I really want to see her because i think the last interactions with her, including my lj, went too far out of hand. i strongly feel i need to apologize to her. whats done is done, and i had no right to say the things i said. some of you had already deleted your posts, but i deleted the entry just now.
I think i was very depressed at that time. i didn't realize it. and seeing her do things harmful to her body and soul, hurt me. i was sad angry and confused. i took it out on her poor decisions. that was cruel of me. tomorrow/later today i am going to see her and tell her all this.
well, if anyone wants to talk, by all means call me on my cell!
love,
~sarah