move along
I just asked Rocky (via facebook) if she'll photograph my wedding. I don't have an intended, nor do I know if I'll be able to legally marry whoever I end up with, nor do I think I'll be getting married for a LONG LONG TIME. But I thought I'd ask.
I should come with a warning label these days: any conversation you have with me may lead to tears.
But it's good. If not now, when? I'm oddly hopeful, with all the crying. I've been so disoriented this past year, so far away from myself and everyone else and any sense of normalcy or happiness (let alone healthy), that I'm grateful for the opportunity to cry and have people listen to what's wrong with me and try to help me come up with ways to fix it. So very, very lucky that I have such wonderful people around me who want me to be happy and healthy (normal doesn't really register with us). As Martha Stewart (remember her?) would say, It's a good thing.
I'm pretty sure I've cried every day for the past week at least. Sunday night I cried so hard with my sister that my inner ears hurt (have I already asked yall if that happens to you? I can't remember). I apologize when I cry. I apologize to people for not being able to figure this out on my own, for not knowing better, for needing to lean on them. I think I need to realize how silly this is.
I should come with a warning label these days: any conversation you have with me may lead to tears.
But it's good. If not now, when? I'm oddly hopeful, with all the crying. I've been so disoriented this past year, so far away from myself and everyone else and any sense of normalcy or happiness (let alone healthy), that I'm grateful for the opportunity to cry and have people listen to what's wrong with me and try to help me come up with ways to fix it. So very, very lucky that I have such wonderful people around me who want me to be happy and healthy (normal doesn't really register with us). As Martha Stewart (remember her?) would say, It's a good thing.
I'm pretty sure I've cried every day for the past week at least. Sunday night I cried so hard with my sister that my inner ears hurt (have I already asked yall if that happens to you? I can't remember). I apologize when I cry. I apologize to people for not being able to figure this out on my own, for not knowing better, for needing to lean on them. I think I need to realize how silly this is.