my latest epiphany...
So woke up this morning after a fun night with my friends. Last night was the 4c koat and tie party. The independents "fall formal" if you will. I don't know...all I know is that I got to dress up and get all pretty and that was fun enough for me. So Layla is here and she came which was a blast. Alex went over there with us and he's too cute!! James and Chris came over which was fun because they got to see me all pretty and that is the total point of the evening. We went over so Chris could meet Michael. Tyler Kane and Leslie were over there too (got a fun little greeting from Tyler hehe woo for that!). So they got to see me pretty. Sorry I got really excited about this whole getting pretty thing. It doesn't happen very often and I like to show off. I had a lot of fun got back to my room late, but no less is expected from a 4c party. I'm ALWAYS the last girl standing. hehe
Anywho back to the epiphany....So laying in bed trying to figure something out. Well it hit me. I've been replaced. Once again by someone I considered my best friend. I was thinking though what did I to to get replaced? The weird thing is that it happened the same way as last time. All of a sudden. I turned my back for one second and I've been replaced, and no amount of pleading or just ignoring it and hoping in the back of my head that they'll come back will do me anygood!!!! I also noticed that I seem to replaced by someone who is just a little more bitchy than I am. Well I'm not going to go and try and be a huge bitch to see if that will help. I mean thats just not who I am so I'm stuck. And I know that my friends get tired of me putting myself in these situations. But see the thing is I do have other people who I I consider my best friends that this DOESN'T happen with. I just seem to fight for the ones that do this. So I guess I just kind of wonder why it always happens the same? And is there actually something that I have done? Well there's nothing I can do now. So I guess all I can say is....you win! they're yours. Take good care of them.
Anywho back to the epiphany....So laying in bed trying to figure something out. Well it hit me. I've been replaced. Once again by someone I considered my best friend. I was thinking though what did I to to get replaced? The weird thing is that it happened the same way as last time. All of a sudden. I turned my back for one second and I've been replaced, and no amount of pleading or just ignoring it and hoping in the back of my head that they'll come back will do me anygood!!!! I also noticed that I seem to replaced by someone who is just a little more bitchy than I am. Well I'm not going to go and try and be a huge bitch to see if that will help. I mean thats just not who I am so I'm stuck. And I know that my friends get tired of me putting myself in these situations. But see the thing is I do have other people who I I consider my best friends that this DOESN'T happen with. I just seem to fight for the ones that do this. So I guess I just kind of wonder why it always happens the same? And is there actually something that I have done? Well there's nothing I can do now. So I guess all I can say is....you win! they're yours. Take good care of them.