Am I really that bad of a kid?

[sarahshots]

So my mom called me and well needless to say thats why I said am I really that bad of a kid? I went WAY over on my cell phone minutes again. So she yelled at me about that and I also got yelled at for coming home last night instead of staying at home and coming back this morning. She told me that all night she dreamt about my funeral and was waiting for the call that I was a splat on the road. I understand that she is my mother and that she is just worried about me. She told me that when I came home next that she would drive me home. Well of course the next thing I thought was we'll see when the next time I come home is. She has kids at home that she can bug and torment. How am I supposed to grow up if I just keep getting restricted? I looked at the AMDA (American Music and Dramatic Acadamy) website for a long time today. I wonder what she'll do when I move? What if I do go to AMDA. I really am looking at it tohugh. The girl who originated as Tracey Turnblad in Hairspray (which is my dream role) went to AMDA. But I have three years to make up what I'm going to do later and I'm going to talk to Michael about it later. I don't know.

I hate this for all of my friends at home. But if my mom doesn't calm down and change her mind then I won't be home for a long time. I don't want to have to be like that. But I need my car and it just really bothers me that I get threatened like that. Ok well thats about it or now I'm ready to just finish crying about all of this bull shit.

Ciao!