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why can't i sleep? its been a normal day - i slept reasonably well for a reasonably long time, worked, walked, smoked, drank. all the normal things. very little new. how much do we mean anything - we is nonsense talking and me trying to avoid saying things. how much do i ever mean anything i say? forget everything, do i mean anything i say? of course. ok then. its a start. don't want to mean some of the things i say. do i then want to say things i don't mean? seems a bit silly. we seek an even keel. shockingly hard to stop with we - very zen and all but sometimes healthy responsibility is the thing needed. is the thing i need. even grammatical habits are dangerous - too much passive voice really can be disastrous. cryptic cryptic cut in thoughts. honest communication feels best. gnite.