I can't stop crying

[sarahravia]

For Historical Record:
Even knowing that a large part of it is hormones and brain chemicals, depression sucks.

I can't stop crying. Really, I can't stop crying. No, I really can't stop crying. I can't stop crying.

How can I say that nothing is wrong? Something is wrong. I can't stop crying.
How can I say there's no reason for me to be upset? I am upset. I can't stop crying.
How can I say there's no reason for me to cry? I am crying. It's just a fact.

What do I do now? How do I make it stop? What I want is to take a pill. A xanax or a trazodone. Will sleeping make it better? I can only hope. What if I wake up tomorrow and I still feel like this?

Does it even matter anymore? It'll go away and I'll forget how bad it is. And it'll happen again...and again. I knew this was coming. It always comes back.

Whatever. I'll do the things I'm supposed to. I will feel better. And when I feel better I'll remember that feeling this shitty was temporary and that everything is ok.

I miss having someone to lay me down and stroke my hair and tell me everything is going to be alright.