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[saraho0o]

so i went to the doctors yesterday. hoping for some good news but that was the exact opposite of what i got. he said that he is 99% sure that i tore my acl and mencius. and 90% sure that i will need to have surgery. i hope i am in that 1%. err. my knee is still so fat. they said that if it doesn't go down soon they should probably drain it. ew. i will probably go for a mri sometime next week and go from there. surgery would suck right now. right before summer? err. why me. we get 3 free lift tickets to sunday river for next year. and 40 dollars for my pants that they cut off. still really sad that i won't be able to replace my favorite pair of pants consider they are over 2 years old. ben leaves tomorrow morning for colorado. i was supposed to go because dustin wasn't able to, but now he can. so that kind of sucks, but i will be happy for the weekend to myself. i am supposed to go to a kegger on saturday night with brittany, but i don't think that i will. i have mucho homework to make up. i am almost 100% sure that i failed at least half of my classes the term. next term i have to get my act together of else i probably won't graduate. it is kind of funny that i find myself at this point. i always assumed that graduation was something that you were just guaranteed after busting your ass for 14 years (preschool and kindergarten). but it is really not. i never thought i would be one of those kids that might not make it. i have to though. i already ordered my cap and gown. they really can't let me not go. i only need two more credits to finish, but of course i have to deal with all this stupid shit that the school is putting me though. like not talking a language and now they are saying that i need to finish the school year passing four full credit classes? what. that was never a deal. i don't even have four full credit classes. soo. i think they are just putting me though bullshit because they are bored. i really do. english i just have a feeling that i will pass. even though i did not do my 7 page paper. math i will pass because mr. v had me before and knows how shitty my life. and poli si i should pass becasue mr. carlson is to much of a softy and i know how to get to him. anatomy is completely shot and thats not really good consider i am going to become a medical assistant next year. but what evs. im already into the school so my grades do not matter now. it is all about getting that diploma. i don't really want to be stuck in this place for another 2 years.

my summer plan:
find a super good paying job at a bank.
save 90% of my money so that i can put a down payment on a rabbit or other awesome car.
go to the west cost.
perhaps find a cheep place to live in portland to save gas.

i doubt it.

well the battery is dying.