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I hate it here.
I don't even know if I am putting on a front anymore or if I'm really happy.
I've always needed more. Until I realized that what I need what was what I already had and by the time I noticed this, it was flat out to late.
It will be one year tomorrow.
I don't know what I expect. I know what I hope for though. I want to wake up and not remember. I want to wake up and be new again. Ready to start over and the face the day.
I want to start over.
But I want to start over with him.
I'd give anything to have it be like before.
I would give my very last breath to go back one year from this moment and just tell him that I love him.
I wish he knew how sorry was.
And yet, once again, two wrongs didn't make this right.
I'm saying we are both to blame.
Of course me more so then him.
I'm still dazed and confused.
I don't even know if I am putting on a front anymore or if I'm really happy.
I've always needed more. Until I realized that what I need what was what I already had and by the time I noticed this, it was flat out to late.
It will be one year tomorrow.
I don't know what I expect. I know what I hope for though. I want to wake up and not remember. I want to wake up and be new again. Ready to start over and the face the day.
I want to start over.
But I want to start over with him.
I'd give anything to have it be like before.
I would give my very last breath to go back one year from this moment and just tell him that I love him.
I wish he knew how sorry was.
And yet, once again, two wrongs didn't make this right.
I'm saying we are both to blame.
Of course me more so then him.
I'm still dazed and confused.