wish I was there...
Long time, no post. Well I'm switching gears here. Instead of the typical journal type entries I am going to try for more of a topical blog. We'll see how it goes.
So today I was at Kent State for classes. One thing that is so weird to me is how completely out of place I feel there. When I took the class in the summer it was fine because I just came and went and there weren't very many students there anyways. But now I spend one full day there a week with an hour and a half break between classes. And the campus is just brimming with students. On my first day of Fall semester (yea I still catch myself calling it fall quarter all the time) I sat in the student center during my break and ate lunch in the food court. As I sat in the corner I watched as people who hadn't seen each other all summer greeted each other and I saw groups of friends sitting together catching up. I have come to realize that Kent isn't my school. With OU I felt completely comfortable. By the time I was a senior I had met a lot of people and usually saw someone I knew or recognized to say hi to as I was walking to class. I knew the layout and set-up of the campus, I had an insider's view of life at OU. Ohio University was MY school. Now I am beginning to realize how much I miss that. When I was watching the Bobcats win on ESPN Friday night I regretted the fact that I wasn't still at Ohio University watching the game. I am so lucky for the four years that I had at Ohio University because they have made me a better person but now I wish I could just run back there and crawl back into my comfort zone. Today as I was sitting in the second floor of the student center overlooking the courtyard I mistakenly thought that I saw people I knew. That looks like (__fill in the blank__). However, I soon realized that the people I thought I recognized were people from OU, people that are currently at OU or who graduated with me and have moved on. As much as I try to make Kent my school, I don't know that I am ever going to be comfortable there. Once again I feel like the awkward high school freshmen who doesn't know where to put the cafeteria tray after lunch or a college freshman at my first party.
"Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone"
So today I was at Kent State for classes. One thing that is so weird to me is how completely out of place I feel there. When I took the class in the summer it was fine because I just came and went and there weren't very many students there anyways. But now I spend one full day there a week with an hour and a half break between classes. And the campus is just brimming with students. On my first day of Fall semester (yea I still catch myself calling it fall quarter all the time) I sat in the student center during my break and ate lunch in the food court. As I sat in the corner I watched as people who hadn't seen each other all summer greeted each other and I saw groups of friends sitting together catching up. I have come to realize that Kent isn't my school. With OU I felt completely comfortable. By the time I was a senior I had met a lot of people and usually saw someone I knew or recognized to say hi to as I was walking to class. I knew the layout and set-up of the campus, I had an insider's view of life at OU. Ohio University was MY school. Now I am beginning to realize how much I miss that. When I was watching the Bobcats win on ESPN Friday night I regretted the fact that I wasn't still at Ohio University watching the game. I am so lucky for the four years that I had at Ohio University because they have made me a better person but now I wish I could just run back there and crawl back into my comfort zone. Today as I was sitting in the second floor of the student center overlooking the courtyard I mistakenly thought that I saw people I knew. That looks like (__fill in the blank__). However, I soon realized that the people I thought I recognized were people from OU, people that are currently at OU or who graduated with me and have moved on. As much as I try to make Kent my school, I don't know that I am ever going to be comfortable there. Once again I feel like the awkward high school freshmen who doesn't know where to put the cafeteria tray after lunch or a college freshman at my first party.
"Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone"