take the bad with the good i suppose

[sarahlmg]

the year's over, this summer will be amazing, and i just got into the architecture school. soo...why is there this feeling inside like my heart plummeting? i'm usually not one to wait around, but that's all i've been doing. i keep telling myself that i'm just going to forget about it and move on, but then i turn the corner and i'm right back where i started. all this does is make me feel like there's something about me that's just not good enough. too many people have made me feel that way. and after a while...it starts to sink in, no matter how many times you tell yourself it's not true.
ugh.
everything i'm looking forward to could turn around so quickly into something i'm dreading.

i hate ambiguity. i hate not knowing which cards are being played.