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I hate old feelings that won't go away
&& being so torn between this way and that.
You wanna do whats best for you.. but you don't want to let anyone else down doing it and if you do...
How are you supposed to be happy with the choice you made knowing you hurt somebody else?
I've got this really great guy..
and things might be going somewhere.
&& I don't want to mess this up because I still have feelings for the other guy.
I don't want to fall for him again..
I've been doing so good.. beginning to move on, after too many months.
Things get going really well and I feel like I'm over him
but then all these old feelings return again... and I end up going back to him
and becoming completly lost.
I don't want to be hurt again...
&& I know I most likely will
but even that doesn't stop me from having these feelings for him.
He said he might be leaving for the army or whatever.
So maybe that way things will be easier..
but then I'm still going to miss him to death
because either way.. he's still a friend.
&& I love him.
but somtimes it scares me that I love him too much