the loss of friends you didn't have
last night i went to chapel hill and stayed with hannah. we ate cosmic cantina w/ kelli and those other alpha chis and got some fro-yo. ha. then we tried to get drunk, i guess i did off like 1.5 shots of vanilla vodka but i don't think hannah did. then we met up w/ andy and MARTIN! and 2 other boys and went to some shitty frats. we took 2 more shots ...tequilla (aristocrat, nasty ass...)and then some jager ones dropped into gatorade so we probably got all sorts of diseases from drinking out of the same cups and 900 other sluts. oh well. there was really nothing fun going on there even though there were so many parties. it made me miss state a lot. and get really sad about joe.
christina says i only like him b/c he's not paying attention to me. i don't know. we only hung out like 3 times and we never DID IT so it's not REALLY a big deal, but i get attached so easily that it just hurts that he could lose interest so fast. i guess i'm just really annoying or he found something better. whatever. maybe that's not even why i'm sad. i just need SOMETHING, u know? something to be excited about and i really think that i do want a boyfriend, i just want it to be the PERFECT one so i don't cheat on him all the time and get bored and sad. so yeah i probably don't want one b/c that will never happen. but i do! haha i suck. raaar.
i came home today and it took FOREVER b/c it was like ONE LANE on 40 for like 6 or so exits it was annnoooyyinnnggg... then drew came! yay and we went and looked for somewhere to eat and he discovered that i like at the drive-in and white octave so that i'm not as much of a loser as he thought...ha... :(. we ate at bear rock cafe which is yeah, pretty much a rip off, but it's ok. then i came home and started feeling sick and imed joe and told him that i was sad about him not liking me and he hasn't said anything back but i guess that was an annoying thing to say, i'm so dumb sometimes, especially online and with boys. I JUST WANT TO KNOW. JUST TELL ME YOU DON'T LIKE ME SO I CAN GET OVER IT, DAMNIT. i don't want to sit look at my phone all the time hoping that you've called me...that is stupid and i'm tired of it. yay. at least we go to state and at least there are 9 million boys. RIGHT. and i can ask tyler to ask him why he doesn't like me so i can prevent things like this from happening again. ha...yeah right.
UHHHMMM OKAY SORRY. that is just. what i need to bitch about...thanks. oh i saw chelsea, thomas's g/f at chapel hill. that was cute. not really anybody else...that's kinda weird. OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY that's all!
christina says i only like him b/c he's not paying attention to me. i don't know. we only hung out like 3 times and we never DID IT so it's not REALLY a big deal, but i get attached so easily that it just hurts that he could lose interest so fast. i guess i'm just really annoying or he found something better. whatever. maybe that's not even why i'm sad. i just need SOMETHING, u know? something to be excited about and i really think that i do want a boyfriend, i just want it to be the PERFECT one so i don't cheat on him all the time and get bored and sad. so yeah i probably don't want one b/c that will never happen. but i do! haha i suck. raaar.
i came home today and it took FOREVER b/c it was like ONE LANE on 40 for like 6 or so exits it was annnoooyyinnnggg... then drew came! yay and we went and looked for somewhere to eat and he discovered that i like at the drive-in and white octave so that i'm not as much of a loser as he thought...ha... :(. we ate at bear rock cafe which is yeah, pretty much a rip off, but it's ok. then i came home and started feeling sick and imed joe and told him that i was sad about him not liking me and he hasn't said anything back but i guess that was an annoying thing to say, i'm so dumb sometimes, especially online and with boys. I JUST WANT TO KNOW. JUST TELL ME YOU DON'T LIKE ME SO I CAN GET OVER IT, DAMNIT. i don't want to sit look at my phone all the time hoping that you've called me...that is stupid and i'm tired of it. yay. at least we go to state and at least there are 9 million boys. RIGHT. and i can ask tyler to ask him why he doesn't like me so i can prevent things like this from happening again. ha...yeah right.
UHHHMMM OKAY SORRY. that is just. what i need to bitch about...thanks. oh i saw chelsea, thomas's g/f at chapel hill. that was cute. not really anybody else...that's kinda weird. OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY that's all!