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today before work i went to borders and tried to study. i could not, so i decided to read some C.S. Lewis. there's a book that has a bunch of excerpts in it, and i decided to read that one. from the very first page i started crying a little.
it was this part from The Silver Chair:
"Are you not thirsty?" said the Lion.
"I am dying of thirst," said Jill.
"Then drink," said the Lion.
"May I -- could I -- would you mind going away while I do?" said Jill.
The Lion answered this only by a look and a very low growl. And just as Jill gazed at its motionless bulk, she realized that she might as well have asked the whole mountain to move aside for her convenience.
The delicious rippling noise of the steam was driving her near frantic.
"Will you promise not to -- do anything to me, if I come?"
"I make no promise," said the Lion.
Jill was so thirsty now that, without noticing it, she had come a step nearer.
"Do you eat girls?" she said.
"I have swallowed up girls and boys, women and men, kings and emperors, cities and realms," said the Lion. It didn't say this as if it were boasting, nor as if it were sorry, nor as is it were angry. It just said it.
"I daren't come and drink," said Jill.
"Then you will die of thirst," said the Lion.
"Oh dear!" said Jill, coming another step nearer. "I suppose I must go and look for another stream then."
"There is no other stream," said the Lion.
After reading this a few other amazing passages, i felt so refreshed. i felt so broken and refreshed. i've been playing it safe, and He is not safe. but he is so, so, so, good.
then i was reading for art history and it talked about how van Eyck always signed his work an wrote "as i can" in some language or another. in reference to "as i can, not as i would" or "i did my best." and that reminded me of the innocence mission and basically today was perfect even though i didn't get a single thing for tomorrow accomplished.
as i can...
as i can...
it was this part from The Silver Chair:
"Are you not thirsty?" said the Lion.
"I am dying of thirst," said Jill.
"Then drink," said the Lion.
"May I -- could I -- would you mind going away while I do?" said Jill.
The Lion answered this only by a look and a very low growl. And just as Jill gazed at its motionless bulk, she realized that she might as well have asked the whole mountain to move aside for her convenience.
The delicious rippling noise of the steam was driving her near frantic.
"Will you promise not to -- do anything to me, if I come?"
"I make no promise," said the Lion.
Jill was so thirsty now that, without noticing it, she had come a step nearer.
"Do you eat girls?" she said.
"I have swallowed up girls and boys, women and men, kings and emperors, cities and realms," said the Lion. It didn't say this as if it were boasting, nor as if it were sorry, nor as is it were angry. It just said it.
"I daren't come and drink," said Jill.
"Then you will die of thirst," said the Lion.
"Oh dear!" said Jill, coming another step nearer. "I suppose I must go and look for another stream then."
"There is no other stream," said the Lion.
After reading this a few other amazing passages, i felt so refreshed. i felt so broken and refreshed. i've been playing it safe, and He is not safe. but he is so, so, so, good.
then i was reading for art history and it talked about how van Eyck always signed his work an wrote "as i can" in some language or another. in reference to "as i can, not as i would" or "i did my best." and that reminded me of the innocence mission and basically today was perfect even though i didn't get a single thing for tomorrow accomplished.
as i can...
as i can...