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SO. some things just some times anger me. nothing specific, well, yeah, specific. its rumors. ohhh the rumors.
people don't know what they are talking about half the time, and then the other half, they just should keep their mouths shut.
i'm not even talking about just me... i dont want to know what so and so did last week with suzzy q, or
how drunk someone got last night.
i really don't care. they are the same person, and so i might as well just be naiive then to have to try and not let that effect how i look at them
becuase it really doesnt, its just easier not to know sometimes.. ya know?
and when it comes to me and really close friends. thats when i hate it the most.
like, what did i ever do to them, that they feel the need to talk about me to other people. hm? odd.
my life is my own, and sometimes i wish it was more private.
that's why i'm kinda excited to go off on my own adventure, to not have to deal with the high school rumors, or just, the feeling that people know what i did last year, or what so and so did last night. becuase we won't worry about that sort of thing.
i'm just going to have a crazy fun time at college---no. not getting crunk or d-runk or whatever you kids call it these days... but just living life and being goofy. and spontaneous and just able to have deep conversation any time of the night/day. i want to become close friends with girls again. i've got like, a few close girl friends, but no one really really close. and my guy friends i can't hang out with as much becuase of tyler, and wanting to respect him.
its just, its going to be nice getting away and starting new, as much as its going to suck. cus i know it will, i'm going to miss my family, and my friends, and just life here, being known and loved.
i miss people taking me seriously.
but still having fun laughing with me.
its the kind of feeling of, i want to be close with multiple people, but i know i'm just going to be going, so whats the point.
but i'm not gone yet, so whats the point of not having close friends?
hm, i'm alright now.
people don't know what they are talking about half the time, and then the other half, they just should keep their mouths shut.
i'm not even talking about just me... i dont want to know what so and so did last week with suzzy q, or
how drunk someone got last night.
i really don't care. they are the same person, and so i might as well just be naiive then to have to try and not let that effect how i look at them
becuase it really doesnt, its just easier not to know sometimes.. ya know?
and when it comes to me and really close friends. thats when i hate it the most.
like, what did i ever do to them, that they feel the need to talk about me to other people. hm? odd.
my life is my own, and sometimes i wish it was more private.
that's why i'm kinda excited to go off on my own adventure, to not have to deal with the high school rumors, or just, the feeling that people know what i did last year, or what so and so did last night. becuase we won't worry about that sort of thing.
i'm just going to have a crazy fun time at college---no. not getting crunk or d-runk or whatever you kids call it these days... but just living life and being goofy. and spontaneous and just able to have deep conversation any time of the night/day. i want to become close friends with girls again. i've got like, a few close girl friends, but no one really really close. and my guy friends i can't hang out with as much becuase of tyler, and wanting to respect him.
its just, its going to be nice getting away and starting new, as much as its going to suck. cus i know it will, i'm going to miss my family, and my friends, and just life here, being known and loved.
i miss people taking me seriously.
but still having fun laughing with me.
its the kind of feeling of, i want to be close with multiple people, but i know i'm just going to be going, so whats the point.
but i'm not gone yet, so whats the point of not having close friends?
hm, i'm alright now.