Je suis effrayé.
Thanks for the feedback on my last entry. I think I'm semi-okay but still not really there.
I found a place that I'm 80% sure that I'm going to choose to live in. I just need to call them up and tell them that I'm interested and I have to do some bank stuff.
So the only thing left to do is to tell my mom [and my sister]. I know that both my mom and my sister will freak out to the extreme and I will end up spending the night being yelled at. I told my younger cousins and they're super supportive about it, but then again they're just my younger cousins. Every time I have the thought of telling my mom, the worst butterflies come into my stomach, making it feel like they're about to explode out. I've decided that the deadline of me telling my mom would be next Saturday. I know my mom will hate the place on the basis that I'll be essentially sharing a house with a guy, but I really do like the place.
Originally I planned to give my mom some options of ones that I liked, but after some seeing and thinking, I've come to the conclusion that me trying to live downtown won't really workout because:
A) For the same amount of money I won't get a place as nice.
B) It's not a basement apartment
C) Commuting to work will be hell. [For example, if my shift starts at 7:00am, it would be near impossible for me to make it on time seeing as the TTC doesn't open up until 6:00am.
So...it just comes down to me picking up my courage and announcing it officially. I've been trying to make an outline of what I'm going to say, but it's hard. I know some people advised for me to have someone there as well so my mom won't freak out as much...but the thing is that she will freak out more if I try to have someone there...but just when no one is there.
I'm pretty sure my mom will try to make me show her my grades for school. I know it sounds really unrelated, but seriously, she will do that. I've come to the conclusion that if that occurs, I'm going to stand my ground and refuse.
I just wonder if I will be able to bring up my courage to face the music. The only thing I'm afraid of is my mom telling me to leave. I know this sounds stupid seeing that I'm planning on leaving anyways, but still, knowing that my mom doesn't want me is kind of disheartening.
P.S. If things do not go as well, I will probably need a "safety house". I wonder who will be up for that?
I found a place that I'm 80% sure that I'm going to choose to live in. I just need to call them up and tell them that I'm interested and I have to do some bank stuff.
So the only thing left to do is to tell my mom [and my sister]. I know that both my mom and my sister will freak out to the extreme and I will end up spending the night being yelled at. I told my younger cousins and they're super supportive about it, but then again they're just my younger cousins. Every time I have the thought of telling my mom, the worst butterflies come into my stomach, making it feel like they're about to explode out. I've decided that the deadline of me telling my mom would be next Saturday. I know my mom will hate the place on the basis that I'll be essentially sharing a house with a guy, but I really do like the place.
Originally I planned to give my mom some options of ones that I liked, but after some seeing and thinking, I've come to the conclusion that me trying to live downtown won't really workout because:
A) For the same amount of money I won't get a place as nice.
B) It's not a basement apartment
C) Commuting to work will be hell. [For example, if my shift starts at 7:00am, it would be near impossible for me to make it on time seeing as the TTC doesn't open up until 6:00am.
So...it just comes down to me picking up my courage and announcing it officially. I've been trying to make an outline of what I'm going to say, but it's hard. I know some people advised for me to have someone there as well so my mom won't freak out as much...but the thing is that she will freak out more if I try to have someone there...but just when no one is there.
I'm pretty sure my mom will try to make me show her my grades for school. I know it sounds really unrelated, but seriously, she will do that. I've come to the conclusion that if that occurs, I'm going to stand my ground and refuse.
I just wonder if I will be able to bring up my courage to face the music. The only thing I'm afraid of is my mom telling me to leave. I know this sounds stupid seeing that I'm planning on leaving anyways, but still, knowing that my mom doesn't want me is kind of disheartening.
P.S. If things do not go as well, I will probably need a "safety house". I wonder who will be up for that?