::fifty six::
sorry for lack of posts.
random rants:
what am i doing with my life?
i try to live as a good person.
some may say a good role model.
the only things im good at, are listening, loving, and photographing.
im not a very good speaker. i like to talk but once im sitting with someone of higher intelligence or wisdom or just a deep thinker, all i can do is listen. i have realized i cannot communicate proficiently with those kinds of people.
i have NO IDEA what i wanna do with my skills as a photographer.
im pretty sure i dont wanna just do wedding and portraits my whole life in a studio.
unless someone else takes care of business and clients haha.
everyone else seems to be doing things with their life
getting married, traveling the world, helping people, and what am i doing?
i feel like im called to go out and help people i just dont know how?
i have compassion for a lot of things; Uganda, homeless, children, ect
i just wanna love people. thats all. thats what Jesus calls all of us to do.
but i decided to finish getting an AA degree in photography, who knows why in the end..
i havent had satisfaction in my life for awhile now.
maybe because i had stressed over school and working.
maybe because i havent been in love and i miss that feeling dearly.
but i have one semester left. and im sure ill have my jobs until i move away or go out traveling.
and i know deep down that my soul mate is out there somewhere and will present himself to me at the right time.
i just need patience..
and prayer.
this is what i know.
i love Jesus with all my heart and I want to try harder each day to live my life like it.
i love photography and i would pursue it with no income if i could.
i love loving.