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aii!!
that's a funny noise. yes it is.
why can i walk around invisible? what is so wrong?
so say i drew a line in the dirt. would you know to lower yourself to touch it?
***
"you were tossing, mumbling something" "you seemed upset" "you seemed uncomfortable" "i thought you were awake" "i thought you wanted to talk"
"i was watching you sleep"
"hey there, morning!"
the very instant consciousness floated into me
every morning
you were there
"i was watching you sleep"
the sound of your voice
that look in your eyes, so pure and kind
actual loving.
"i thought you were waking up. you were sighing."
"i was watching you sleep"
***
a throwback to years ago ... i just love remembering when he loved me, it always warms me :-)
and hey, i can always use some warmth to wash away my silly constant moments of sad :-)
man, i am endlessly enviously (hah) of people who have no f-ing emotions!!! i just am so easily smooshed! i know many of the things that i dwell on, or that affect me, good AND bad, have almost no affect on other people. i feel like i'm the only one who is so ultra freakin sensitive!! i'm not sure why i am so ... soft? geeeez! toughen up!
and sometimes it begs the question, WTF is WRONG with people?? i kind of hate people. i guess thats because i love them so much. human nature is so gorgeous and hilarious and amazing it's just too much sometimes.
i did meet a nice person this weekend who seems genuinely gentle and kind, and meeting people like him always makes me think, i wish MORE people could be like that. i hope to have made a cool new friend who is actually (easy) walking distance from my apartment! but anyway, sidenote there :) i'm just kinda dorkily excited to have met another brighton person :-D
it's weird, settling yourself in a new city. for some people it's fast, but for me, as with like everything in my life (haha) it's pleasantly slow. i take my time and when i'm ready i branch out.
er .. something :)
that's a funny noise. yes it is.
why can i walk around invisible? what is so wrong?
so say i drew a line in the dirt. would you know to lower yourself to touch it?
***
"you were tossing, mumbling something" "you seemed upset" "you seemed uncomfortable" "i thought you were awake" "i thought you wanted to talk"
"i was watching you sleep"
"hey there, morning!"
the very instant consciousness floated into me
every morning
you were there
"i was watching you sleep"
the sound of your voice
that look in your eyes, so pure and kind
actual loving.
"i thought you were waking up. you were sighing."
"i was watching you sleep"
***
a throwback to years ago ... i just love remembering when he loved me, it always warms me :-)
and hey, i can always use some warmth to wash away my silly constant moments of sad :-)
man, i am endlessly enviously (hah) of people who have no f-ing emotions!!! i just am so easily smooshed! i know many of the things that i dwell on, or that affect me, good AND bad, have almost no affect on other people. i feel like i'm the only one who is so ultra freakin sensitive!! i'm not sure why i am so ... soft? geeeez! toughen up!
and sometimes it begs the question, WTF is WRONG with people?? i kind of hate people. i guess thats because i love them so much. human nature is so gorgeous and hilarious and amazing it's just too much sometimes.
i did meet a nice person this weekend who seems genuinely gentle and kind, and meeting people like him always makes me think, i wish MORE people could be like that. i hope to have made a cool new friend who is actually (easy) walking distance from my apartment! but anyway, sidenote there :) i'm just kinda dorkily excited to have met another brighton person :-D
it's weird, settling yourself in a new city. for some people it's fast, but for me, as with like everything in my life (haha) it's pleasantly slow. i take my time and when i'm ready i branch out.
er .. something :)