"Well wait longer!"
So for the past 5 or 6 weeks i haven't been feeling well- and my parents wouldn't let me go to the doctor. finally, last thursday i made my mom take me to the immediate care center. and the diagnosed me ( that sounds so formal) with an upper respiratory infection and bronchitis. i don't think i'm contagious. they didn't tell me i was. so i got an antibiotic, and after much persuading and fighting- my dad finally let me take it. and i feel much better. like it still hasn't gone away completely, but i feel much better. and i'm not coughing as much. but i do get headaches allllllllll the dang time. gotta get that fixed.
enough illness update....now for my life! i have had a new perspective on my life. not life- my own life. i guess maybe because i am feeling better- and in light of recent events. i can't take it to seriously, and i have to learn how to chill. i've come a long way since freshman year. i used to get worked up over everything- now i choose my battles. and also- i have accepted it that my parents don't treat me like an adult. they probably won't for at least 4 years or so. as much as i can act like one, or my own age- they will treat me the same. plus- they go back and forth from liking me to not liking me. ugh- only 2 more years.
i love life- and i've realized that i throw myself into so many things because i don't want to miss out on anything. my worst fear is that life will pass me by without living it. well- that and drowning.
but i'm also afraid that because i'm doing so much- life is passing me by. but i am careful to stop and smell the roses. literally. at work, i take care of the plants- and today one of them bloomed. so i smelled it. it was sweet.
i love the fears of life, and the scary crap that it throws at me. it makes me realize that i am still alive. it's like driving when you are about to fall asleep- but then you get an adrenaline rush when you accidentally drive on the shoulder of the road. hypothetically speaking, of course....
and because i love my friends- i want them to love me back. not saying unconditionally- just think of me. something i said to emily today in spanish (which i've now aptly renamed "make fun of rafa, text on my cell phone, do english homework and talk" class). we need to think of each other more, and not about each other.
time for my tv marathon wednesday! one tree hill- and then TOP CHEF!!!!
thank yous to anyone who has helped me recently. with anything. and i'm always here- for everything.
enough illness update....now for my life! i have had a new perspective on my life. not life- my own life. i guess maybe because i am feeling better- and in light of recent events. i can't take it to seriously, and i have to learn how to chill. i've come a long way since freshman year. i used to get worked up over everything- now i choose my battles. and also- i have accepted it that my parents don't treat me like an adult. they probably won't for at least 4 years or so. as much as i can act like one, or my own age- they will treat me the same. plus- they go back and forth from liking me to not liking me. ugh- only 2 more years.
i love life- and i've realized that i throw myself into so many things because i don't want to miss out on anything. my worst fear is that life will pass me by without living it. well- that and drowning.
but i'm also afraid that because i'm doing so much- life is passing me by. but i am careful to stop and smell the roses. literally. at work, i take care of the plants- and today one of them bloomed. so i smelled it. it was sweet.
i love the fears of life, and the scary crap that it throws at me. it makes me realize that i am still alive. it's like driving when you are about to fall asleep- but then you get an adrenaline rush when you accidentally drive on the shoulder of the road. hypothetically speaking, of course....
and because i love my friends- i want them to love me back. not saying unconditionally- just think of me. something i said to emily today in spanish (which i've now aptly renamed "make fun of rafa, text on my cell phone, do english homework and talk" class). we need to think of each other more, and not about each other.
time for my tv marathon wednesday! one tree hill- and then TOP CHEF!!!!
thank yous to anyone who has helped me recently. with anything. and i'm always here- for everything.