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I can't even begin to understand the pain I am going through. I thought it would be easy because I understood. But it has been so much harder. I feel so unlovable even unlikable. I just hate feeling so out of control. I hate more the fact that I feel like I need to be in control. When I was in high school things were so more laid back. I know it is silly to say they felt so easy because they were much easier. I just don’t want to feel like I loose everyone I love.