alone with my books, and no hope for helping hands
i've got so much going on this week, it's crazy:
--jane eyre study guide due wed
--part 1 pre-calc test wed
--persuasive essay (haven't done anything for this) due thurs
--part 2 pre-calc test thurs
--eight pre-calc assignments, due thurs
--1st lacrosse game thurs
--wrap up for current events due friday (extremely important, must get every possible point and asks everyone to send out vibes that i get a 4 or 5 on AP test!)
--as co-captain of lacrosse team, need to start organizing fund raisers so we can play a few games at Red Mountain football stadium. it costs 300$ to light the field for one game, so much money is needed. bleh.
--need new lacrosse stick, mouthgaurd, and body armor by thurs
--need to pick up new glasses and contacts
--need to get paperwork done for confirmation retreat this weekend
--need to fill out job applications
--need to call hospital for thousandth time and get service hours for silver c, which were due yesterday. hopefully other girls are behind as well... :/
and the list goes on. i truly do not believe there are enough hours in the day.
Okay, and onto to other things. There are some new opportunities on the horizon. As said before, i'm going to apply for a couple different jobs at the mall, i have applications and everything. im in DESPERATE need of money, and though i have no time, i see no other option. this is kinda a crappy situation, but hey, at least work means meeting new people and having some form of income. so hurrah work? also, there is some hope of a cure for my current "love pariah-ness", but this is something im a bit wary of. old feelings take a long time to die for me, and i feel vulnerable, not sure if im ready to trust someone and open up as much as i'll need to. oh who am i kidding? i trust everyone, that hasn't changed. nothings really changed i suppose. i still hold onto old, stale hope--that's something i wish i could change about myself. but meh, i'm becoming all emo kid and im sure no one wants to read about my inner emotional turmoil, lol. i guess what's meant to happen will happen, and i can't change it even if i want to. what's done is done, there's always gonna be that question of whether it was right or not, but i guess getting caught up in what "if's" is foolish. that way lies madness, and really depressing songs. haha, and as i side note, i REALLY wish i was british.
"when the answer that you want,
is in the question that you state,
come what may"
and i've got nothing else to say. cheers. :]
--jane eyre study guide due wed
--part 1 pre-calc test wed
--persuasive essay (haven't done anything for this) due thurs
--part 2 pre-calc test thurs
--eight pre-calc assignments, due thurs
--1st lacrosse game thurs
--wrap up for current events due friday (extremely important, must get every possible point and asks everyone to send out vibes that i get a 4 or 5 on AP test!)
--as co-captain of lacrosse team, need to start organizing fund raisers so we can play a few games at Red Mountain football stadium. it costs 300$ to light the field for one game, so much money is needed. bleh.
--need new lacrosse stick, mouthgaurd, and body armor by thurs
--need to pick up new glasses and contacts
--need to get paperwork done for confirmation retreat this weekend
--need to fill out job applications
--need to call hospital for thousandth time and get service hours for silver c, which were due yesterday. hopefully other girls are behind as well... :/
and the list goes on. i truly do not believe there are enough hours in the day.
Okay, and onto to other things. There are some new opportunities on the horizon. As said before, i'm going to apply for a couple different jobs at the mall, i have applications and everything. im in DESPERATE need of money, and though i have no time, i see no other option. this is kinda a crappy situation, but hey, at least work means meeting new people and having some form of income. so hurrah work? also, there is some hope of a cure for my current "love pariah-ness", but this is something im a bit wary of. old feelings take a long time to die for me, and i feel vulnerable, not sure if im ready to trust someone and open up as much as i'll need to. oh who am i kidding? i trust everyone, that hasn't changed. nothings really changed i suppose. i still hold onto old, stale hope--that's something i wish i could change about myself. but meh, i'm becoming all emo kid and im sure no one wants to read about my inner emotional turmoil, lol. i guess what's meant to happen will happen, and i can't change it even if i want to. what's done is done, there's always gonna be that question of whether it was right or not, but i guess getting caught up in what "if's" is foolish. that way lies madness, and really depressing songs. haha, and as i side note, i REALLY wish i was british.
"when the answer that you want,
is in the question that you state,
come what may"
and i've got nothing else to say. cheers. :]