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mmm, i'm really bored. i've got like 30 minutes before i need to leave for lacrosse, and i have no desire to start in on math hmwk that needs a good two hours to complete. so here i am, updating my journal.
today and yesterday were kinda like one big emotional blur. i don't think i've ever experienced such a strange mix of feelings in my entire life. and then to top it off, i had a huge "discussion" with my parents for about two hours last night, where they basically told me i need to change the way im living my life or there are going to be "dire consequences". they criticized everything about me, and it got to the point were i think they just kept on berating me for things because they felt like it was necessary to make their point. To sum it up, said point was that I'm in the process of 'becoming' a disappointment to them, and that I need to shape up. It was strange, the way I dealt with this whole discussion. I didn't try to fight back, but i didn't cry either. I just sat there and listened to them, and for the first time, it didn't hurt my feelings that they were being so unsensitive to my life. I realized that my parents DO care about me, they just go about showing their concern in completely the wrong way. Do I begrudge them that? Of course not. Sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is express your emotions through words and logic.
this weekend is going to be fun. I guess that's pretty pathetic, that i'm looking forward to the weekend and it's only tuesday, but there you have it. I just can't wait to get out of my house. And yay, Saturday is valentines day. Honestly, i know a lot of people hate Valentines day, but why? It's not "singles awareness day", that's actually May 9th and they celebrate it in England. But seriously, why hate a holiday that's all about love? I'm gonna hang out with jane and chantelle, and then Luke is having a single's party for all us "losers without dates :)". And myles, i hope you and jessica have a wonderful Valentine's day together, you two deserve it!
I REALLY want to go the coachella music festival, but like everything else this year, it's the weekend of May 1 and 2. So that means there's prom, SAT's, and Coachella all together. Bloody hell, i soo would love to go. Oh well, i guess acing the SAT is more important (crosses fingers), and there's always next year.
And here is my random song lyric for the day:
"She said "you've been pushing me like i was a sore tooth...
You can't respect me because i've done so much for you"
And he said 'well i hate that it's come to this...
But baby i was doing fine, how do you think that i survived
The other 25 before you?
And my,o my, the crulest lies are often told without a word,
My,o my, the kindest truths are often spoken, but never heard."
--Ben Folds: 'The Last Polka'
Cheers.
today and yesterday were kinda like one big emotional blur. i don't think i've ever experienced such a strange mix of feelings in my entire life. and then to top it off, i had a huge "discussion" with my parents for about two hours last night, where they basically told me i need to change the way im living my life or there are going to be "dire consequences". they criticized everything about me, and it got to the point were i think they just kept on berating me for things because they felt like it was necessary to make their point. To sum it up, said point was that I'm in the process of 'becoming' a disappointment to them, and that I need to shape up. It was strange, the way I dealt with this whole discussion. I didn't try to fight back, but i didn't cry either. I just sat there and listened to them, and for the first time, it didn't hurt my feelings that they were being so unsensitive to my life. I realized that my parents DO care about me, they just go about showing their concern in completely the wrong way. Do I begrudge them that? Of course not. Sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is express your emotions through words and logic.
this weekend is going to be fun. I guess that's pretty pathetic, that i'm looking forward to the weekend and it's only tuesday, but there you have it. I just can't wait to get out of my house. And yay, Saturday is valentines day. Honestly, i know a lot of people hate Valentines day, but why? It's not "singles awareness day", that's actually May 9th and they celebrate it in England. But seriously, why hate a holiday that's all about love? I'm gonna hang out with jane and chantelle, and then Luke is having a single's party for all us "losers without dates :)". And myles, i hope you and jessica have a wonderful Valentine's day together, you two deserve it!
I REALLY want to go the coachella music festival, but like everything else this year, it's the weekend of May 1 and 2. So that means there's prom, SAT's, and Coachella all together. Bloody hell, i soo would love to go. Oh well, i guess acing the SAT is more important (crosses fingers), and there's always next year.
And here is my random song lyric for the day:
"She said "you've been pushing me like i was a sore tooth...
You can't respect me because i've done so much for you"
And he said 'well i hate that it's come to this...
But baby i was doing fine, how do you think that i survived
The other 25 before you?
And my,o my, the crulest lies are often told without a word,
My,o my, the kindest truths are often spoken, but never heard."
--Ben Folds: 'The Last Polka'
Cheers.