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wow. well things are getting finished up slowly. i can't believe i'm almost done. i'm glad, but if i think about it too much, i get overly sentimental. especially with all the griping i've done about this place. i just hate the thought that i won't see some of these people again.
the pat kids, the most important, i think i will keep in touch with at least somewhat. i plan on coming back to visit them and as much as i want to get out of here, its nice to know that i'll be missed by some people at least.
i've actually been a leader for the first time in my life. i don't know how well i did with that, but i tried. things seemed to work out ok and i'm pretty confident leaving with what i built up within the group.
i learned yet again, that there are way more people lacking common sense than i ever imagined (i.e. roomies). i guess i've gotten some good stories, but i wish was more assertive. oh well whatever. i won't have to see them ever again. them and their crazy mother. i wonder how the marriage is going to work out though. i might hear one day.
tomorrow is my last regular day here. my parents will be here early on wednesday to start packing my shit. i hate moving. i really haven't started getting anything together yet. i've sort of been enoying not doing anything for once. i'm just hoping that everything fits into the cars. that would suck if it didn't.
hopefully tomorrow i'll be inspired to clean the oven. joy.
i sort of don't want to leave the apartment. as soon as i get back home, my parents will try to resume their influence over my life. i hate it. they're really starting to make me want to keep my distance, since you know, they have all the answers about everything. i just hate that i've never given them reason to question my judgement and yet they still try to tell me that i should commute to eastern and not work. how the hell does that work for a 22 year old? that is definitely not why i am going to have a bachelor's in a few days. i've always done to please them and now they're going to have to get used to me not going along with everything they think i should do. like they understand anyway. where i'm at, neither them or the rest of my family has never been. they don't understand. i just with they'd let me do what i want or at least not be so vocal. then i'd feel less guilty. that's how they've always gotten to me. i give myself horrible guilt trips if i've done something i regret. i need to stop that.
this weekend seemed really short but the may day bbq was glorious with russian medals, soviet flag, nascar and all... andy was delayed gettin up here. i felt bad how much shit he went through to get here. he's the best ever. i love him so much. just thinking about him makes my day. hehe we're so gushy. sorry guys.
i'm kind of pumped to get back to the farm. i miss it of course. i'm a little nervous too. i never knew that info real well to begin with and its been since august that i've presented it. i'm going to get rehired on thursday and i'm torn between wishing not to make it on the schedule for next week and starting to make money. i could use the time off though i think. i need to make my underwears and read up on the firestones. i can still present ford stuff in my sleep (and given the chance probably would). i just hope that they don't hire so many people this summer. there was a severe surplus of people compared to the number of hours available. i really need the money.
ah well, i'm gonna go knit for a little while (such an old lady with all my cable knits!) and then maybe get motivated to start movin stuff around in my room. hope all is well. good luck on things this week!
the pat kids, the most important, i think i will keep in touch with at least somewhat. i plan on coming back to visit them and as much as i want to get out of here, its nice to know that i'll be missed by some people at least.
i've actually been a leader for the first time in my life. i don't know how well i did with that, but i tried. things seemed to work out ok and i'm pretty confident leaving with what i built up within the group.
i learned yet again, that there are way more people lacking common sense than i ever imagined (i.e. roomies). i guess i've gotten some good stories, but i wish was more assertive. oh well whatever. i won't have to see them ever again. them and their crazy mother. i wonder how the marriage is going to work out though. i might hear one day.
tomorrow is my last regular day here. my parents will be here early on wednesday to start packing my shit. i hate moving. i really haven't started getting anything together yet. i've sort of been enoying not doing anything for once. i'm just hoping that everything fits into the cars. that would suck if it didn't.
hopefully tomorrow i'll be inspired to clean the oven. joy.
i sort of don't want to leave the apartment. as soon as i get back home, my parents will try to resume their influence over my life. i hate it. they're really starting to make me want to keep my distance, since you know, they have all the answers about everything. i just hate that i've never given them reason to question my judgement and yet they still try to tell me that i should commute to eastern and not work. how the hell does that work for a 22 year old? that is definitely not why i am going to have a bachelor's in a few days. i've always done to please them and now they're going to have to get used to me not going along with everything they think i should do. like they understand anyway. where i'm at, neither them or the rest of my family has never been. they don't understand. i just with they'd let me do what i want or at least not be so vocal. then i'd feel less guilty. that's how they've always gotten to me. i give myself horrible guilt trips if i've done something i regret. i need to stop that.
this weekend seemed really short but the may day bbq was glorious with russian medals, soviet flag, nascar and all... andy was delayed gettin up here. i felt bad how much shit he went through to get here. he's the best ever. i love him so much. just thinking about him makes my day. hehe we're so gushy. sorry guys.
i'm kind of pumped to get back to the farm. i miss it of course. i'm a little nervous too. i never knew that info real well to begin with and its been since august that i've presented it. i'm going to get rehired on thursday and i'm torn between wishing not to make it on the schedule for next week and starting to make money. i could use the time off though i think. i need to make my underwears and read up on the firestones. i can still present ford stuff in my sleep (and given the chance probably would). i just hope that they don't hire so many people this summer. there was a severe surplus of people compared to the number of hours available. i really need the money.
ah well, i'm gonna go knit for a little while (such an old lady with all my cable knits!) and then maybe get motivated to start movin stuff around in my room. hope all is well. good luck on things this week!