The real reason...
I wrote this out to someone just now, but I think it really neatly sums up why I went and unfriended a bunch of people:
"I seem to have very few functioning filters right now (both on LJ and in my brain), and no one needs to see the sort of shit that comes out of my head right now. I really feel like I've lost touch with reality lately... I'm not going to rehash all of the reasons why, just that LJ has suddenly become the center of the negativity vortex in my life. And I think it's the root cause of why I'm so bitey-stabby-angry all the time."
So, there you have it. The real reason.
And on that note, I'm going to enforce a two week LJ vacation for myself. I was thinking about how all these lucky people were going to go have an LJ vacation at Pennsic for two weeks, and how they'd get to see one another in real life, and hang out and talk face to face and how lovely that would be... To just *be* with others in the physical sense.
I realized I'm not going to Pennsic, but I can still have an LJ vacation and take the time to create real spaces in my life. Places where I can be with people physically, and talk to them, and touch them, and give hugs and kisses and give back scratches, and bake them cookies and fix them cocktails and let them know that they really really matter to me. And to not be a disembodied internet voice screaming into the void for a change.
And don't be surprised if I do end up re-friending you in a couple of weeks. You don't have to return the favor, of course. Your LJ, you decide who plays and who doesn't. I may be in the right headspace at that point to be able to be open with everyone again. Right now, it's like I said above: Too much negativity in ME.
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"I seem to have very few functioning filters right now (both on LJ and in my brain), and no one needs to see the sort of shit that comes out of my head right now. I really feel like I've lost touch with reality lately... I'm not going to rehash all of the reasons why, just that LJ has suddenly become the center of the negativity vortex in my life. And I think it's the root cause of why I'm so bitey-stabby-angry all the time."
So, there you have it. The real reason.
And on that note, I'm going to enforce a two week LJ vacation for myself. I was thinking about how all these lucky people were going to go have an LJ vacation at Pennsic for two weeks, and how they'd get to see one another in real life, and hang out and talk face to face and how lovely that would be... To just *be* with others in the physical sense.
I realized I'm not going to Pennsic, but I can still have an LJ vacation and take the time to create real spaces in my life. Places where I can be with people physically, and talk to them, and touch them, and give hugs and kisses and give back scratches, and bake them cookies and fix them cocktails and let them know that they really really matter to me. And to not be a disembodied internet voice screaming into the void for a change.
And don't be surprised if I do end up re-friending you in a couple of weeks. You don't have to return the favor, of course. Your LJ, you decide who plays and who doesn't. I may be in the right headspace at that point to be able to be open with everyone again. Right now, it's like I said above: Too much negativity in ME.
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