Been a bit
Well it's 7:10am and I am wide awake!! Grr! Figures, since I can sleep in today my body says no! Well it doesn't help that it is already getting hot outside.....although it's not that bad, since it means it would be a good day to float around my parents pool today after I get all my shit done! =) Well it's kinda been a while since I last updated this...so I guess I'll start from where I left off in the last journal. Saturday was even more fun than expected!! I ate WAY to much...but it was so freakin good I couldn't stop eating it! I was hurting all the way home, b/c my belly was so full lol! It was so romantic though.....they sat us outside at a table and there was a nice breeze coming through and kinda quite,yet you could still hear the music::::sigh:::....very relaxing and romantic heh! Then we just kinda drove around for a bit and Karl AKA the bottomless pit LOL wanted some DQ, so we stopped by there on the way home and then sat outside while he ate his ice cream heh. Sunday OMG was hellaious! It felt like I was sitting in the fires of Hell it was so damn hot and humid! It was worth it though to see my baby bro graduate! They had the perfect ending to when it started to pour and thunder! I wish they would not have had such boring ppl speak though....that is the most reason why it felt like Hell! Shit the 1st guy was all "I'm not gonna make this a long and boring speech since it is so hot outside." Yea fuckin right!? He was up there for almost a 1/2 hour! I don't wanna know how long he would have been up there if it wouldn't have been hot?! Oh well it was still good! Ha and then Sunday nite Ally actually called me! I just about had a cornary....since I haven't talked to her since the weekend of my b-day....heh well I wouldn't call it talk heh...oh well life goes on! Yea so well see how this weekend goes with miss Ally and all the rest of the family this weekend. I just hope my arrogate grandpa Stevens doesn't make some rude comments to the wrong ppl....hence my mom and dad or any one else. Sometimes I would like to shake that man to see if it would knock any sense into him, but I dobut it would work. I don't understand how someone can be so mean and cyncial all the time to his own flesh and blood! Well like I said before my TRUE grandpa passed away, b/c he made you feel loved and never cut you down...like a real grandpa should do. This Sunday is gonna be kinda hard for me and I know a lot of my other family as well...since it will be exactly 4 yrs ago when we had my open house and my grandpa was there and then passed away that nite. Karl keeps asking why I have been a lil moody these last few days.....well it's b/c I don't wanna walk into Greg's open house and start crying, because it is gonna bring back memories of my open house and my grandpa and it is gonna make me miss him even more than I already do. Even after 4yrs my heart still aches for him and I still wish I could have one more day with him to tell him everything I didn't get to say before he left. Part of me died when he passed away and it still hurts...but I put on a happy face everyday and inside I'm full of pain. Then I think I'm being selfish b/c my grandma is the one who is trully heart broken and I see it on her face everyday and it breaks my heart because there is nothing I can do to fix her pain. Arrgh.... I hate it when I cry! Makes me feel like a lil bitch! All right well I guess I'm gonna go and get in the shower since I am up already!