so, about emotions...
So if you're reading this and thinking "woah this is kinda personal!"... I don't really care, because the majority of you have been/are/will be dealing with the same issues! So...yeah, I'm not ashamed of my problems. Should I be?
yeah... so I was thinking a lot today about masking emotions, and pretending things are okay and you're feeling okay, when you're really not. Like for example... if you miss somebody, and you're too embarrassed to say it? So you just keep it all inside and pretty soon things are feeling worse than ever. I think that's a problem I have... along with half the other kids my age. If you think about it, the majority of us probably don't even act how we're feeling... 50% pretend nothing is wrong, while the other 50% blow things up out of proportion! thats really not healthy. but I think the truth is that sometimes its just too scary to face your own feelings and deal with them.. but then this wall starts to grow, until you don't really feel at all... but the problem then is not only do you not feel pain, but you miss out on all the other emotions God has given us as well, like joy and peace. My wall recently came down... I really don't want it to come up again. I love being free.
yeah... so I was thinking a lot today about masking emotions, and pretending things are okay and you're feeling okay, when you're really not. Like for example... if you miss somebody, and you're too embarrassed to say it? So you just keep it all inside and pretty soon things are feeling worse than ever. I think that's a problem I have... along with half the other kids my age. If you think about it, the majority of us probably don't even act how we're feeling... 50% pretend nothing is wrong, while the other 50% blow things up out of proportion! thats really not healthy. but I think the truth is that sometimes its just too scary to face your own feelings and deal with them.. but then this wall starts to grow, until you don't really feel at all... but the problem then is not only do you not feel pain, but you miss out on all the other emotions God has given us as well, like joy and peace. My wall recently came down... I really don't want it to come up again. I love being free.