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It has been too long, since I have last posted a blog. Much has happened, but that does not matter as much as what is going on now. I am going to Delta to fulfill my prerequisites. After I plan on attending either Oakland, MSU, or CMU. I would like to attend Oakland the most because of the Journalism program. I'm considering MSU because of the credibility incase I must move to another state. My mother wants me to attend CMU because its close and I would be able to stay at home. I would be satisfied with any of these choices I’m not too picky. I do not have much money though. I just bought a new car. Probably not the best idea ever, but I will see where my choice leads me. I'm quite worried about going into journalism. There is definitely a risk and I am warned each day. My current job is gay. It will not help me to receive a journalism career.. well i guess minimum wage helps. I'm writing for the Collegiate, which is the only thing I have going for me right now. At this point in my life I feel as though I am not productive. I'm not sure what else I can do, I've tried getting an internship at the BC times. If i were to get one now, i'd be leaving soon. So what would be the point? I'm going to volunteer during the summer though, my mother and i discussed going into a nursing home with my aunt whom works in one. I'm pretty excited about that. That is basically my life goal wise. Besides that I've met an amazing boy named Matthew that has shown me what love really is and I'm happy whenever we're together.
I have made a poem that has nothing to do with my post, but I will get the satisfaction of knowing that it isn't just sitting in my journal..
Slowly the life drains into my soul
each thought turns dark
each step grows frail
To smile is difficult
to run is endangered
Hello reappearing sun
timing my own destruction
I will tally our encounters
From one date to the last
I will live by my dash
To remember?
I hope.
Or to lose all knowledge is uncertain
I will prepare for each event,
or else I'd have no meaning.