Hope this feeling lasts!
I'm feeling unbelievably good today. It's been a long time since I felt like this on ponderage I think there are prob a few reasons for this.
1 I got a job
2 I can pretty much live on my tips (bye bye money worries)
3 A certain person has agreed to spank me for a certain very bad thing I did
4 I met a pal for lunch today and she told me how proud she was of the change in me since I started doing CBT especially lately
5 All my plans are coming along nicely (career etc)
6 I am having lunch with another pal tomorrow that I previously had 'tension' with but which we've sorted out now
7 I'm probably going to get uproariously drunk tomorrow night (maybe tonight too!)
8 I don't have to stay on my feet for 8-10 hours tonight
9 I have caught up on all my e-mails
10 I let my group know what's going on with the delay in my fic.
I just get the urge to hug people today - I actually feel slightly crazily happy but as I've stopped taking my medication I know it's nothing but my own happys. Yay!! I'd never have thought a year ago that I could ever feel like this.
Also I had the realisation today when my pal asked me that I'm proud of myself for how well I've done and how far I've come. The big realisation there being, I haven't ever in my life been proud of myself before - it's a nice feeling, I like it! I love the fact that I don't immediately start 'discounting positives' (a common cognitive distortion in depression). Here's to me being proud of myself more often (which will happen quicker if I go make my lazy ass finish my latest fic hehe!)
1 I got a job
2 I can pretty much live on my tips (bye bye money worries)
3 A certain person has agreed to spank me for a certain very bad thing I did
4 I met a pal for lunch today and she told me how proud she was of the change in me since I started doing CBT especially lately
5 All my plans are coming along nicely (career etc)
6 I am having lunch with another pal tomorrow that I previously had 'tension' with but which we've sorted out now
7 I'm probably going to get uproariously drunk tomorrow night (maybe tonight too!)
8 I don't have to stay on my feet for 8-10 hours tonight
9 I have caught up on all my e-mails
10 I let my group know what's going on with the delay in my fic.
I just get the urge to hug people today - I actually feel slightly crazily happy but as I've stopped taking my medication I know it's nothing but my own happys. Yay!! I'd never have thought a year ago that I could ever feel like this.
Also I had the realisation today when my pal asked me that I'm proud of myself for how well I've done and how far I've come. The big realisation there being, I haven't ever in my life been proud of myself before - it's a nice feeling, I like it! I love the fact that I don't immediately start 'discounting positives' (a common cognitive distortion in depression). Here's to me being proud of myself more often (which will happen quicker if I go make my lazy ass finish my latest fic hehe!)