......
"wake up and let go
of these feelings that
i've had for you....
it's easier said than done."
~*! i'm in a good mood today, kinda. i feel like i have something to look forward to..... lol moving out. i will prolly move out either in april, or at the end of june. i guess it just depends if someone wants to take me in, and how things are going at the house.... as of now i just want to leave.
... i know my parents just want whats best for me, and their hearts are in the right place, but it's just not working. it's really hard for me to respect them and whatnot, when all they ever do is tell me that im the reason our family has so many problems.
..so i also have trouble understanding why i cant leave now if im such a horrible kid and im the cause of all the problems?
....on a good note tho~!* i am going to florida in 2 weeks~!* i am tooo excited~!* i can wear a skirt again!! lol.... i hate the winter and all of its coldness!
...also i guess im paiting my room, so hoorah, that will at least give me sumthing to do while im once again....grounded. big surprise right... lol
...im too the point where i dont even care anymore if i get in trouble, i am soooooo close to being able to just walk away from all of this. so yea, make my life hell for the next 5 months...
haha... i think i have been grounded more this school year so far than i have been ungrounded. so im kinda used to it lol.
~***hmm, what else what else.... nothin really, im just excited to go paint my room~!* lol, its gunna be orange. .... hmmm, maybe i wont move out right away if im gunna re-do my whole room, i want to enjoy it at least for a little bit~!*lol
of these feelings that
i've had for you....
it's easier said than done."
~*! i'm in a good mood today, kinda. i feel like i have something to look forward to..... lol moving out. i will prolly move out either in april, or at the end of june. i guess it just depends if someone wants to take me in, and how things are going at the house.... as of now i just want to leave.
... i know my parents just want whats best for me, and their hearts are in the right place, but it's just not working. it's really hard for me to respect them and whatnot, when all they ever do is tell me that im the reason our family has so many problems.
..so i also have trouble understanding why i cant leave now if im such a horrible kid and im the cause of all the problems?
....on a good note tho~!* i am going to florida in 2 weeks~!* i am tooo excited~!* i can wear a skirt again!! lol.... i hate the winter and all of its coldness!
...also i guess im paiting my room, so hoorah, that will at least give me sumthing to do while im once again....grounded. big surprise right... lol
...im too the point where i dont even care anymore if i get in trouble, i am soooooo close to being able to just walk away from all of this. so yea, make my life hell for the next 5 months...
haha... i think i have been grounded more this school year so far than i have been ungrounded. so im kinda used to it lol.
~***hmm, what else what else.... nothin really, im just excited to go paint my room~!* lol, its gunna be orange. .... hmmm, maybe i wont move out right away if im gunna re-do my whole room, i want to enjoy it at least for a little bit~!*lol