self-pity is unattractive
so i haven't been sleeping really at all lately, so when i do sleep i have been having the most insane dreams ever. ya kno.. the kind that are so real, you wake up thinking you are really in them? yea those kind. and it hasnt been fun. at all. i think i need to go the doctor and get some highly priced prescription sleeping pills. unless anyone else has a good solution for my random insomnia?
'i just needed someone to talk, & you were just too busy with yourself'
don't really know what's going on with some of my closest friends. i think i'm tired of making an attempt anymore. i know that sounds shitty but i'm tired of the bullshit childish games. i'm tired of the much un-needed drama. seriously, why do we talk shit about the people we supposedly care the most about? i'll never know. i'm tired of the words that people say. i'm tired of being taken for granted. and taking others for granted. i'm tired of pushing for friendships that won't come together.
this is where i am. you know where to find me. this is who i am. take it or leave it. don't be disappointed in my life style. it's mine not yours. i can't change my past, it will stay full of regret. but my regrets are my own, not yours. i can only move forward from there. dont push me. i'll do it on my own. wait and see. so be a friend or don't. the choice is yours to take. i will give as much as you give. the ball is in your court. if you feel you can live without me, that choice is also yours to take, but give me the respect i deserve and let me know you feel that way. dont ignore me.
i am a human too.
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
'i just needed someone to talk, & you were just too busy with yourself'
don't really know what's going on with some of my closest friends. i think i'm tired of making an attempt anymore. i know that sounds shitty but i'm tired of the bullshit childish games. i'm tired of the much un-needed drama. seriously, why do we talk shit about the people we supposedly care the most about? i'll never know. i'm tired of the words that people say. i'm tired of being taken for granted. and taking others for granted. i'm tired of pushing for friendships that won't come together.
this is where i am. you know where to find me. this is who i am. take it or leave it. don't be disappointed in my life style. it's mine not yours. i can't change my past, it will stay full of regret. but my regrets are my own, not yours. i can only move forward from there. dont push me. i'll do it on my own. wait and see. so be a friend or don't. the choice is yours to take. i will give as much as you give. the ball is in your court. if you feel you can live without me, that choice is also yours to take, but give me the respect i deserve and let me know you feel that way. dont ignore me.
i am a human too.
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on