giving up............
so this has very possibly been the most depressing few days of my life. i have never been so angry/sad/confused/alone.. all at once
had to take charlie to the emergency room sunday b/c he fell, and tore open 4 of his stitches in his side.. felt real bad for him.. hes such a nice old guy..
monday morning caroline called me and told me all the shitty things amys been saying about me lately.. god, shes supposed to be my bestfriend.. and what the fuck does she do.. judge me %100 of the time.. i cant believe that gurl, ive been nothing BUT there for her.. i just dont understand..
so i didnt confront her at dinner.
we all exchanged presents.. and that was fun we got lotsa stuff from one another and had a nice dinner at olive garden.. and i didnt say anything to amy b/c i didnt wanna ruin christmas for my friends.
but then when we were going out after we got home, amy went to go hang out with the "kendoll" jeff... and caroline told me whatshed said about me on the phone today.. so i picked up the phone and let her have it.. i dont deserve that shit.. i really dont.. and it hurts me a ton that she would stab me in the back like that.. oh well, not all friendships last forever right??
so we went to a party at daves. and letme tell you i will never touch that tony walker shit again. yikes. my stomach feels like its inside out. barf.
so much for the usual tuesdays. i guess i ruined all that too. ive been doing alot of ruining things lately. just wish it didnt have to end. i care about you so much it hurts. but im sorry i made yur patience run thin. im an asshole.
going to barf and sleep.. good times..
xo
had to take charlie to the emergency room sunday b/c he fell, and tore open 4 of his stitches in his side.. felt real bad for him.. hes such a nice old guy..
monday morning caroline called me and told me all the shitty things amys been saying about me lately.. god, shes supposed to be my bestfriend.. and what the fuck does she do.. judge me %100 of the time.. i cant believe that gurl, ive been nothing BUT there for her.. i just dont understand..
so i didnt confront her at dinner.
we all exchanged presents.. and that was fun we got lotsa stuff from one another and had a nice dinner at olive garden.. and i didnt say anything to amy b/c i didnt wanna ruin christmas for my friends.
but then when we were going out after we got home, amy went to go hang out with the "kendoll" jeff... and caroline told me whatshed said about me on the phone today.. so i picked up the phone and let her have it.. i dont deserve that shit.. i really dont.. and it hurts me a ton that she would stab me in the back like that.. oh well, not all friendships last forever right??
so we went to a party at daves. and letme tell you i will never touch that tony walker shit again. yikes. my stomach feels like its inside out. barf.
so much for the usual tuesdays. i guess i ruined all that too. ive been doing alot of ruining things lately. just wish it didnt have to end. i care about you so much it hurts. but im sorry i made yur patience run thin. im an asshole.
going to barf and sleep.. good times..
xo