Aug 06, 2011 00:49
There comes a time in your life when you realize things aren't always what they seem. Your parents aren't superheroes, invincible to any obstacle that comes their way. Your friends won't always have the perfect advice to give you for all of your problems. Life isn't always as cut and dry as it seems.
But there also things in life that you can be certain of being what they seem. For instance, you ultimately decide who you are. And there will even be people in your life that you know you can count on to be who they say they are and do what they say they are going to do.
These are the people you know you can trust. These are the people that when all else fails, when the whole world you thought you knew begins to crumble around you, you can place your last remaining faith in them, and they will see you through until the end.
So, when you realize that you're surrounded by a bunch of fakes who have skewed the reality in which you live, you know you will have your friend, your confidant, your faithful stronghold in which you can place your faith, right?
So, what happens when they turn out to be a fake as well? Does that mean you're left with nothing, hopeless, faithless?
I was willing to finally put my trust in you. I was ready to let go of my insecurity, my fears of the past, and finally put my faith in you. And now I find out you're not who you said you were. All of those things that I thought made you the beautiful person I thought you were were a ruse. You're as fake as the rest.
If you're not real, is anything?
Yeah. He was. Granted, he had his flaws, but at least he didn't try to cover it up with something fake. He may not be a superhero, but at least he's real.
I regret ever letting anyone tell me he was fake...because they were the fake ones. Now, I'm left with nothing real.
I just wish I could have him back. Even with the shit we went through, at least there was something real in my crumbling world...
Now I just stand hopeless and faithless amongst the rubble of what we had.
Or was it what I thought we had? I don't know what is or was real anymore...
fear,
fake,
reality,
truth,
via ljapp,
letting go,
life