time of my life

[sarah_l3ee]

thats right. it seems i am having the time of my life. i go out every weekend with my friends and have a blast. i love it. some night idk where to go, where i'll stay but living care-free sometimes is just awesome. i haven't had this much fun in forever. about 2 weeks ago drama was brought to one of our parties & i hated it. i couldn't have a good time. this time drama was brought & i left the room. went outside & continued my fun. i dont like being dragged down when it has nothing to do with me. goodbye to you. it's my last year in highschool and as much as i thought it was gonna suck, it was gonna be the worst, i was gonna hate it..i love it, im having, once again, the time of my life, and i've met so many new people its amazing. i must admit, i've been tired alot, and im not doing some of the things i need to have my mind set on [scholarships & what not] but that'll come back to me sooner or later. i have 3 scholarships to write essays for and i just can't seem to get myself to do it. i know these will be extremely helpful if i get them but im just lazy lately. ha. its insane how today i came home from school & took a damn nap from 2-6. thats just ridiculous. i know i know. but like i said, im just so tired all the time. then i stay up til 2 or 3 am. unable to sleep because i slept so much earlier in the day. i need my sleep back on track but i can't seem to do it. i will one day, maybe. i just realized one of my scholarships is due tomorrow, but did i do it? nope. so now i have 2. i really need to do them, ughh..i just dont feel up to it. i go to school, sleep, work & party with my friends. sue me. i like to sleep & party. seems like a bum thing to do but im still doing good in school & im still wanting to go to college...just right now, i want not to care about anything. so i wont. im not. it's working in it's own way for me.
im tired & this would be the earliest i've slept in months.
12:51 am.
goodnight.
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