Those we encounter pt 2
I have a thought. Or rather im simply writing sentances down im an effort to get it straight in my head so just bare with me here please.
I dont particulary like people. i find that the more i have to do with them and the longer i mix with them to worse they get. They all hang themselves and show their true colours and those true colours are not my favourites. People these days are just so full of shit. They are dishonest and completely removed from being true and never seem to connect to one another. Then i ask myself why the hell do i still want to be around people? Its crazy. i never seem to benefit from it and i can even go so far as saying that my mind seems to be be altered as a result of being around them. Where did real people go? I know that everytime i get close with people they will soon fuck me over or turn out to be nothing as they origionally fronted themselves to be. Then its over. No progression, no improvement. Thats it.
After 5 and a bit years i have found myself 4 girls who i would give my soul to protect. They are still with me now after probably the worst of the teenage years. There is something about them all that makes them special to me and they bring out the worst and very best in me as a person. It has taken me this long to find them and you have to ask why? I have now added to the mix two other girls who open my eyes everyday to their pure and untarnished spirits. These girls are truely like no others i have ever known and they are what i want to know for the rest of my life. One person however, takes the cake. You probably know her. Her name is Leah and she lives in Cananda. There is no better person to extract strength and love from.
So i dont know if i answered my own question. I guess there are good and bad people out there and you just have to sift through them all to find who you are looking for.
My conclusion is though, that there is now more bad than good or at least more corrupt and tarnished humans than ever before. It is starting a cycle.
Guys in my life? Now thats another thought for another day.
I dont particulary like people. i find that the more i have to do with them and the longer i mix with them to worse they get. They all hang themselves and show their true colours and those true colours are not my favourites. People these days are just so full of shit. They are dishonest and completely removed from being true and never seem to connect to one another. Then i ask myself why the hell do i still want to be around people? Its crazy. i never seem to benefit from it and i can even go so far as saying that my mind seems to be be altered as a result of being around them. Where did real people go? I know that everytime i get close with people they will soon fuck me over or turn out to be nothing as they origionally fronted themselves to be. Then its over. No progression, no improvement. Thats it.
After 5 and a bit years i have found myself 4 girls who i would give my soul to protect. They are still with me now after probably the worst of the teenage years. There is something about them all that makes them special to me and they bring out the worst and very best in me as a person. It has taken me this long to find them and you have to ask why? I have now added to the mix two other girls who open my eyes everyday to their pure and untarnished spirits. These girls are truely like no others i have ever known and they are what i want to know for the rest of my life. One person however, takes the cake. You probably know her. Her name is Leah and she lives in Cananda. There is no better person to extract strength and love from.
So i dont know if i answered my own question. I guess there are good and bad people out there and you just have to sift through them all to find who you are looking for.
My conclusion is though, that there is now more bad than good or at least more corrupt and tarnished humans than ever before. It is starting a cycle.
Guys in my life? Now thats another thought for another day.