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[sarah_girlie]

so....today i actually get to relax and do nothin until i have to be at work at 5....its really weird not doin anything....ok so usually all i ever do is just work...and when im not im just at home layin around bouts to go to bed....so its like 130 in the afternoon and i haven't done anything besides lay around....so pretty much i have had a lot of time to just think about a lot of stuff....and i have....im startin to feel down...but i dont' see a reason y....its like im truely happy but then again im not....im beginning to feel like a total loser bc all i do is work and never hang out with my friends....the only time i really hang out is thursday nights at freakin taco mac....which taco mac is the bomb....but still....im beginnin to feel bad for never hangin out and just avoidin everyone....but then again...its like hey if im not in school anymore i mine as well do something with myself until i get back in school....and at least try to save money even though i haven't even done that yet....but its like i miss my friends....and maybe my body is startin to get worn out....im startin to get sick....and i always feel like shit....and im always tired....chris and ashley told me this was goin to happen....but all i did was ignore it and tell them that i can do this.....i just dont' know anymore.....i just feel like something is missin in my life....but i can't figure it out....
so...about the boyfriend....he truely makes me sooooo freakin happy.....i love spendin so much time with him.....we always have soemthing to talk about....there isnt' a dull moment....its great....i feel like im a totaly different world when im with him....
so.....i fuckin love chris and ashley....i dunno what i would do without them.....where would i be.....who would keep me sane.....usually im there for them to let them know everything is goin to be ok....and they probably dont' see how much r apart of my life....but they r.....
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh what am i sayin....damn i fuckin love u guys....