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Steven, what am i suppose to say or even think....this past week has sucked so bad....i would have never thought something like this would happen to anyone of our friends....especially u...this is just so hard to believe....i still think im in some denial about all this....im just waitin for u to pop up somewhere....u were always good at that....it was really hard goin to the veiwing and seein u lay there....u looked so peaceful and happy....and im pretty sure u r havin the time of ur life right now...just like u always do...except its probably even better right now...and i have this feelin that everything is ok and that ur lookin down on all of us and just laughin ur ass off callin us pussies and sayin how we shouldn't be worried and cryin....every day since ive found out ive just had this weird feeling in my gut....im really worried for a lot of ppl....i know so many ppl r torn up by this....and i want to be there for them...but what am i suppose to say....not one person can stop thinkin about u....ur always on all of our minds...when im in my bed i think about u...and how u layed on that bed and complained about a bright ass light....and how u crawled on the floor to lay with ashley and i....and how u asked for listerine....and just earlier that night how u just showed up at taco mac just to say hey bc u were goin to meet up with ur boys at p-box....but then u got ur boys to come to taco mac to chill with us....and u kept throwin fries....all anyone has is awesome memories about u....u r always a topic of conversation....i really wish that u will appear to someone...and u know who im talkina bout....and let them know that ur ok and that ur watchin them....im pretty sure ur r all of ours guardian angel...and im just glad that it is u....one day we will all meet again...Steven....I love u....and i know we just met this summer....but i have had the time of my life with u....and we will once again party it up together....until then....everything we do is just for u....we r goin to make u proud in everyway....and dont' forget to watch over all the guys durin the shows they r playin for u....they need u Steven....i just hope u get to see everyone who loves u....u were so loved....*SIGH*.....i love u and u will always be in my heart and mind....."OH...HEY!"
To my friends....i dunno what to say....i dunno where we r suppose to go from here...it sux that something like this had to bring us together....but now that we r all together lets not let go....we r all here for each other...my doors r always open for anyone who just can't be alone and would like to stay the night....i am always here to listen....i love all of u....and we should never walk away without lettin each other know...i have begun to worry about alot of u...some of u know who u r and others don't....but i am....yall r all awesome ppl and i would never want yall to think differently....and i am always willing to do anything for any of u....and if u need my number just im at imdabiatch03 i love yall and just remember all the good times yall shared with steven...keep it in ur heart always....i love yall and please be careful...
To my friends....i dunno what to say....i dunno where we r suppose to go from here...it sux that something like this had to bring us together....but now that we r all together lets not let go....we r all here for each other...my doors r always open for anyone who just can't be alone and would like to stay the night....i am always here to listen....i love all of u....and we should never walk away without lettin each other know...i have begun to worry about alot of u...some of u know who u r and others don't....but i am....yall r all awesome ppl and i would never want yall to think differently....and i am always willing to do anything for any of u....and if u need my number just im at imdabiatch03 i love yall and just remember all the good times yall shared with steven...keep it in ur heart always....i love yall and please be careful...