Finally healing...
You know I have been thinking a lot lately about Josh and Hillary, and just my life in general. I have come to realize, that Hillary is not a bad person. Though she has said some hurtful things about me before without fully knowing me, but that is the past no? Though an apology would be awesome, that's okay. And I am not mad anymore about the whole ordeal. Yes still deeply hurt, lonely, and I still feel a little used, but if Hillary makes Josh happy, then that is who he should be with. Who am I to be jealous of that? *sighs* I think I can take a deep breath now and start healing. It's funny, that I don't feel mad anymore, not one bit. I just feel exhausted and tired. And I don't regret coming here to Maryland , or giving Josh... certain things. He is still my very good friend and always will be. And hopefully Hillary and I can become friends. Lol I am crying... haha. But I feel better now, and I can begin to move on. It’s still going to be hard and painful, but I can do it with no regrets now. There is so much more I would like to say, but I can't put it into words, so I will just leave it at that.
Thank you to my mom and my closest friends for helping me through all this. I love you guys so much. <3
“The Trouble With Love Is”
Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all
Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name
(The trouble with) The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all
Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
The sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
(The trouble with love is) The trouble with love, yeah
(It can tear you up inside) It can tear you up inside
(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is)
It's in your heart
It's in your soul