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tonight was a very good night.
not until about, 10 minutes ago.. :-(
so listen, as much as no one wants to hear it.. im still crazy for Pat. take it or leave it.. its obvious.
He tells me that "dont be upset if i dont talk to you, i'll be with 'kim'" awww.. so i say
"well, i dont think i'll be there tomorrow. im not ready to see you with another girl just yet"
he's all "whatever"
so i'm all "whatever my ass"
so i get the "fuck you" in the situation.
well.. to you. Sorry for caring. I think you were just afraid to be with someone who cares for you, and respects you and loves you. so because of how much it scares you.. and you dont want to admit it, but it does and you're not ready for it. and i wont be wrong to say that you changed me.. either for the good or bad, i dont know. but what i do know was and still is that im crazy for you, words cant describe it. last week you made me feel like i was your everything. this week im shit on the road. i wont wait around forever. I dont understand why these things still occur. what i do know is that i did nothing. and im not apologizing for anything.
i kinda figured you'd be excited to see me for once, i guess i thought wrong. i guess you can care less...
i was excited.. so excited. until you brought me down. no guy ever made me feel so high, and so low at the same time.
i HATE mixed feelings. if you love me still admit it, and if you dont. tell me, so i can let go of these last hanging feelings for you, and move on.
as hard as it may be, i can find it in myself.
just dont keep me hanging, im not very strong.
no so happy at all :-(
on a much lighter note.. Bradley was very sexy tonight :-P
we taught him the way to a girl's heart, sexual inuendo's.. and those sesitive spots.. and me being his favorite girl.. used them on.. me?! :-P he'll be a good kid some day.
anyways.. after drama elena and i went to blockbuster. she was so drunk she needed me to drive..no complaining. she fell into a shelf there, it was funny.
then we went to Turkey Hill. Parked by a car full of PA guys who were very distracting.. therefor causing me to park crooked. Anyways, i got out of the car.. and got the "Hey WA Cheerleader" i have alittle wave and did the "hheeeyyyy boyyysss" priceless. when i came out.. they were gone.
I got my coffee, and then got distracted driving outta there when i saw Cameron. Drove home and watched movies with elena and ate popcorn.
im all wired from my coffee, i need to chill.
tonight is going to be a restless night.
not until about, 10 minutes ago.. :-(
so listen, as much as no one wants to hear it.. im still crazy for Pat. take it or leave it.. its obvious.
He tells me that "dont be upset if i dont talk to you, i'll be with 'kim'" awww.. so i say
"well, i dont think i'll be there tomorrow. im not ready to see you with another girl just yet"
he's all "whatever"
so i'm all "whatever my ass"
so i get the "fuck you" in the situation.
well.. to you. Sorry for caring. I think you were just afraid to be with someone who cares for you, and respects you and loves you. so because of how much it scares you.. and you dont want to admit it, but it does and you're not ready for it. and i wont be wrong to say that you changed me.. either for the good or bad, i dont know. but what i do know was and still is that im crazy for you, words cant describe it. last week you made me feel like i was your everything. this week im shit on the road. i wont wait around forever. I dont understand why these things still occur. what i do know is that i did nothing. and im not apologizing for anything.
i kinda figured you'd be excited to see me for once, i guess i thought wrong. i guess you can care less...
i was excited.. so excited. until you brought me down. no guy ever made me feel so high, and so low at the same time.
i HATE mixed feelings. if you love me still admit it, and if you dont. tell me, so i can let go of these last hanging feelings for you, and move on.
as hard as it may be, i can find it in myself.
just dont keep me hanging, im not very strong.
no so happy at all :-(
on a much lighter note.. Bradley was very sexy tonight :-P
we taught him the way to a girl's heart, sexual inuendo's.. and those sesitive spots.. and me being his favorite girl.. used them on.. me?! :-P he'll be a good kid some day.
anyways.. after drama elena and i went to blockbuster. she was so drunk she needed me to drive..no complaining. she fell into a shelf there, it was funny.
then we went to Turkey Hill. Parked by a car full of PA guys who were very distracting.. therefor causing me to park crooked. Anyways, i got out of the car.. and got the "Hey WA Cheerleader" i have alittle wave and did the "hheeeyyyy boyyysss" priceless. when i came out.. they were gone.
I got my coffee, and then got distracted driving outta there when i saw Cameron. Drove home and watched movies with elena and ate popcorn.
im all wired from my coffee, i need to chill.
tonight is going to be a restless night.