i think i'm going to puke
For those of you who don't know already, I'm getting married. I know that sounds crazy but its true. I'm going to marry Trevor. Thing is, some stuff has come up since he asked, so I'm not sure when its going to be. We had set the date in September, and then I got to thinking, theres alot to do, and I don't have ANY money saved. So I asked him to push it back a few months. So far we have mentioned January and March but still nothing definite.
I haven't told dad yet.
It sucks so bad when the people you live with don't dig on the person you're going to marry. Ed is probably dying to tell me "I told you not to date him" and just waiting for Trevor to hurt me. Then I will be hurt AND the one that looks like an asshole.
Timmy called me today, he wants to bring me my blanket and visit with Peanut. Thats all fine and good, but still weird. I haven't seen him in person since I started dating Trevor.
I think I'm going to hang out with Erica tonight. She's about the only person I can go to right now. Ed & Lisa aren't exactly speaking to me and no one else is nearby. Sometimes I wonder if this is worth it. But then I think, hell... I've been after this one since I was 17. I think the best solution to everything right now is to.... puke.
I love you Bam, can't wait til you're here again.