is it just me or am i always stuck in a rut
everybody seems like there getting on with there lives... so how come im not? the only thing i haven't totally fucked up is having shit going for me but i feel like sometimes i don't fit. I have absolutel NO FUCKING CLUE what im going to do next year let alone in 2 months when my parents are finally over my shit. it just doesn't make sense to me how people can say hey this is what im going to do and in a year from now maybe even 4 years from now im still going to be doing it. somewhere over the last 4 years i went wrong cause man i had it all figured out and everything was going to be just fine, and obviously thats taken me far- to a school thats not even accredited, the "high school"friends im going to look back on and think of are in fucking programs. And every now and then i still smile when brandon crosses my mind.... There are so many places i've gone wrong in short existence but now the "right" decissions don't fit. when did i get so old?