venting!

[sarah0318]

Well recently i have been really really agrivated and i just have to type away im y im sooo pissed off bc there is noooo other way to get it out of my system.. my fucking computer is sooo slow and i just feel like throwing it out of the fucking window! o wait im in my basement(no windows) Well anyways today i had a long day at work really busy and then i come home and something has been going on with my credit card where they have been taking my payments out of my moms account, welli tell my mom no big deal whatever all i have to do is pay her back, well she is annoying me and yelling at me to do this and that and its extemely fucking annoying all iwant to do is just fucking sit here and relax and be left alone, but yet it seems like wherever i go i can*t do that other than jeffs house which is fucking pathetic. Then i have to deal with my fucking sisterz crazyness...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm And i have just been really down lately and not feeling good and just totally warn out and not myself, i find myself more easily annoyed with things than ever before! MMM perhaps maybe im just growing up and noticing flaws in ppl. But definately im really noticing alot more flawz in ppl and i just see how ignorant ppl really are and its crazy. There are sooooo many ppl out there with nooo fucking moralz wutsoever.. ppl who will be rude to you no matter how nice you are to them they are just fucking rude. VERY rude! Everyone who knows me knows that i have a really extremely bad temper. Itz just soooo amazing how ppl are.. you get older and you grow up or you stay the asame.. some ppl it takes alot longer to grow up and be mature but it happenz.. Things have just been really extremly pissing me off. And i think its stupid how if you even mention something to someone like if something bothers you and they just get all offensive and emotional that you can't even mention anything.. like some of my so called "friends".. perhaps one or 2 of them.. Well you all know who im talking about.. Wow im just bitching like crazy but i needed this to get out of my system or i would go insane.. I need someone to talk to but everyone is busy right now.... All i need is a big coffee to wake me up, a comfy bed to rest in, and a laptop! :D

Well THE BIGGEST bar night of the year is coming up AND.. taking a wonderful trip to the canadian side!! FUN FUN, need to get drunk and blow off some steam!! bye